It's Hard To Say That I'd Stay Awake When I'm Asleep {pitch black x reader}

If it feels good, tastes good it must be mine

As we land rather roughly in the Warren I see a giant kangaroo with boomerangs and big floppy ears. "Now who's the Sheila?" He asks pulling softly at my wings, "Hey- ow- those are attached to me!" I screech and snap them close to me. "MIM said to find the rabbit and I'm assuming he meant you so what in sweet lord in heaven is going on." I say with a blank face as I smooth out some ruffled feathers. 'God damn Australians.' 
"Sheila I don't have any idea about what ya talkin about. Wait- Now I remember your that Sheila I'm supposed to house. Great." I sigh and jump-glide to the top of one of the stone statutes and groan, "Why did I have to stay with the kangaroo? Can't I stay with Tooth and help?" I whine as little eggs come out from behind rocks and the statues and waddle up to me. 'Omgomgomgomgomg' Squealing I fly down and hold as many as I could in my arms. "Can I have one???"" I squeal more and set them back down before playing with them. So freakin cute. "Looks like the big guy needs some help, the lights are on." Jack says before changing the wind and flying upwards. "Come on Sheila."
"But tiny baby eggs..." I say sadly as I'm hoisted to my feet and the Kangaroo taps his foot twice, "I better get one- AHHH!" I cling to him as he speeds though this tight tunnel, my wings occasionally getting caught on roots and rocks. The then we seem to shoot out and I land on my knees about ready to puke. "Never. Again." I stand and cover my mouth, the world spinning slightly. "Haha! Is good to see new guardian!" Suddenly I'm pulled into a bone breaking hug, literally. I whimper as I hear the oh so familiar sound of bones breaking. "Thin- Bones." I gasp as North lets go and looks at some of my bones that are now sticking out. "Sorry. Just been a long time since a new guardian has been chosen."
"Right. So now what?" Clenching my jaw I try to hold back screaming in pain as my bones snap back into place. "Oo!! Is this the new guardian?" Small hands fly into my mouth as my eyes are assaulted with bright colors. "Tooth." The hands remove themselves before my jaw closes with a satisfying snap. "Pitch has been growing in power. We have not seen much activity but Sandy has been seeing nightmares almost every night and in every town."
"Oh sh-"
"Children."
"Snicker doodles. Better?"
"Much." I roll my eyes as I see little back specks swarm and spin around the large globe in the room. Following the trail I walk outside and into a deep and dark forest, the trail soon disappearing. "Ah you must the the guardians new puppet." I spin around towards the voice, "I am no puppet."
"And yet you follow their directions and objectives."
"As if you would know any better after waking up with no memories."
"Toothinia has you memories. She has everyone's."
"How do you know so much?"
"Because I watch them try to help children. But not the ones that are actually in need. When your mother died did Jack Frost come and make you feel better? Did Tooth leave you presents and money when you where on the streets begging?"
I fall to my knees, tears threatening to fall. "N-no."
"Who was there for you?!"
"NOBODY!" I scream as I stand and fire shoots out of my hands, instantly burning the forest, leaving nothing but ashes and a large dark spot on the lovely green hills. "I'm a monster..." I collapse as my world goes back and I hear sleigh bells jingling.