Words I Cannot Say

This is What its like

I'm drowning
That's what it's like
Nothing makes sense
Cant make up my mind

Must pretend
Let everyone believe
I'm ok
I look ok
I act ok

Everything's dark
Nothing's there
Nobody's there
I'm alone

They're around
I'm far away
I see them
I can't hear them

Everything's dull
There's no hope
It's just not worth it
It's so very hard

I feel ok
It pulls me back
I wanna be ok
It's just so hard

Sinking, Alone
Nothing, nobody
Worthless, Pain
Sad, Angry
Lost, stuck
This is what it feels like