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● confusing day

I nibbled my bottom lip as I nervously playing with my fingers, small worries bubbling inside me before I took a deep breath and looked at him in the eyes.

"Aren't you disappointed at me? Mad at me?" I enquired with a frown plastering my face, hurt was evident in my voice.

Instead of mocking, or scoffing at me, Calum surprised me by a smile as he stepped closer, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Why should I? I'm not anybody, Luke. I just want an explanation as your friend."

"Okay," I answered in defeat with a quick huff.

"Actually, I'm trying not to get mad. I have a low temper, you know, but I don't want us to be awkward and I know, or more like, I am very sure you would be honest and explain everything."

I nodded, letting him know that I had agreed on that. I took a slight glimpse at the boy who was standing in front of me with arms crossed over his chest, his features dying for information that I held. Frankly, I never ever had an idea to lie to him. I would be very honest with this. Because, I obviously didn't want to lost his trust. I knew he would know if I was lying or not. He apparently could see through me. Even though I didn't know how he could do it, though, he managed to do it.

And somehow, it made me feel special in some ways.

I took a long, deep inhale before releasing it in one sigh and looked at him. "Okay," I began to say. "So, I don't really remember this but, Dylan and Michael were dating. They would spend their days without me, and because of that I didn't even remember anything about Dylan. All I remembered was that Michael had a boyfriend."

I stopped for a second before continuing again, "And Michael ditched me for him and I was mad, okay. Michael and I were best friends, and I was disappointed that he would leave me for that one guy, his boyfriend. That was why I didn't remember anything about Dylan."

Calum was silent. He took every single of syllables that had came out from my mouth seriously. With my slightly ragged breath due the nervousness that kept swirling inside me, I tried to explain more.

"Then, erhm - you know, one night, Michael came to me and said he missed his best friend. So, we met at his house after I said sure to him back then. It was a mistake, Calum. We both were very drunk and lost our shit."

"Okay," Calum murmured under his breath as I tried to interpret everything he held inside his mind. It was very hard to read his expression. It mixed with anger, disappointment, and more curiosity, but he still managed to prompt a small smile upon his lips, that made me even more confused than before.

It looked like he was trying to hide his anger with a smile, but the dark glint on his eyes explained everything along with the frown that glued on his thick eyebrows, causing me to hate myself for this.

I feigned a cough, trying to gain his attention back at me again before saying, "And then, the next morning we both were laying in bed, completely naked, and urhm.... my butt was hurting so much. God, I was very confused, and scared at the moment. Michael was too, and he even more scared because he cheated on Dylan."

Nodding, Calum said a quick, "Continue."

"We talked about this and we - promised not to mention anything about this in the future. That was why we called this as a 'taboo topic'. But, after we talked and shit, suddenly he received a message from Dylan that said they should break up because he caught Michael cheating on him - with me that night, right in front of him."

Taking a long and deep breath, I fiddled with my fingers anxiously and waited to see Calum's reaction under my lashes, but he remained silent as his eyes keenly told me to go on.

"Okay, so, after they broke up we were still best friends and would support each other without mentioning anything about that. Maybe that's why Dylan hates me and probably - wants to ruin our rela- whatever is going on between us?"

"Okay," Calum fixated his gaze at me, running a hand through his hair that painted with a dark and black color, that always reminded me with the black pitch night without any starts, but still managed to make me calm. "So, you and Michael are just friends right?"

"Of course."

"No romantic feeling?"

"I can't even imagine it, honestly."

Calum let out a chuckle, his eyes narrowed with crinkles that sculpted on it's corners as he bit his bottom lip, trying to hold the laughter. "I trust you, Luke. You're an honest person, and I don't want you to change - ever. I know you would grow up and change but tell me everything and just be honest with me, yeah?"

"No shit sherlock, you're the best person I've ever met even though you're annoying and unromantic, but I still like you."

"See? You're honest. Though, sometimes you're problematic," Calum said jokingly and I only rolled my eyes.

"Are we good?" I finally asked to break the heavy atmosphere that had been ghosting around us and raised one of my eyebrows as I did so.

"Good. We're good, Luke."

I giggled. "So, your last day with Dylan is in.. two days right?"

"Damn right."

The sky was only starting to dim, yet the street lamps already turned on since fifteen minutes ago. The white clouds were beginning to paint a grey color, shielding the bright sun that started to slide off from the sky, telling us that the night would come soon by any minutes. Tapping my feet rapidly, I grazed my lower lip using my teeth before averting my vision to look back at Calum once again.

"Can I have a hug?" I asked shamelessly, yet, the embarrassment was still evident because of the low, unsure tone that engulfed my voice and the slight red color that was creeping over my cheeks. This was so fucking embarrassing.

Calum though, only responded with a cheeky grin as he raised his eyebrows in amusement, as if he were asking 'you serious?' which I just replied with a quick, "C'mon."

"Okay, okay," Calum answered, his damn amused smile hadn't left his face even after he stepped closer towards me, extending his both arms widely at me. Before I could process anything right, my chest was bumping against his, and his arms were securely circling my body as he rested his chin against my shoulder.

I felt myself formed a smile, wrapping my arms around his body as I dove my head on the crook of his neck, my breath brushing against his tan, soft and smooth skin.

I always loved Calum's hug. He would always hug me tightly with his fingers spreading around the area of my back, engulfing me strongly inside his lovely embrace.

Every single person he had dated, was very very lucky, to be honest.

Yeah, that included me.

And now, with the sun already set off from the sky, replaced with a black luminous color that were spreading amongst the grey clouds, and a bright, perfect shaped moon took a place, I wished everything would be alright. Now and then.

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btw guys shameless promo but if you want, you can read promises - cake because i actually love that one ehe.

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