You and I

Chapter 16 - Result and an unexpected confession

Party. One word I love. Note the sarcasm.
I was forced again, to go one of the party. I had agreed because it was inside the campus.
It was allowed because the blonde girl whom Anton had been face-sucking this morning. Apparently she was the principals daughter. She was a great fan of Anton kruz, and she along with some squealing girls had held this party as he had stood first. I right now am quite positive that I'm not infatuated but am actually in love with Anton kruz.
Crazy much?
Probably.
So here I am, with Kristen sitting in front of bonfire, the party was inside. Room 40, the on the last floor in front if the school ground.
It was dark and chilly. People were laughing, kissing, dancing.
I glanced through at room 40, Charlotte with lover boy was crazy dancing. I laughed seeing them together.
Kristen laughed too.
"Go," I told her. She nodded.
"Your boring," she told and walked inside.
I yawned.
This couldn't get any better.
I don't know how long I stayed there just laying down and staring at the stars, when I felt a presence beside me. Like always I thought it was Anton.
And HEY, it wasn't.
It was Riley. His hair wet and he had a huge grin on his face.
"A penny for your thought?" he asks.
"No, I'd take a dollar," I joked. He laughed.
"Soo, why is your hair wet?" I asked.
"Don't ask," he snorts.
"Ookkkayyy,"
I breathe in through my nose. Smiling. It was refreshing.
"What do you do when your in love with a person whom you have no chance with?" I blurted. I don't know what I thought or where my mind was sailing. The question seemed foreign coming from me. I still don't believe Anton kruz of all people is make me feel this way.
"You confess and see of it works," he says.
I gulp.
Confess?
Me?
To him?
He'd probably die laughing at me.
"Is it Anton?" he asks.
I absentmindedly nod.
My breathing stops when I realize what I had just done.
"I-I...it was-,"
"Your so obvious Phoebe," he says smiling.
"You knew?"
"Yes"
"Since?"
"Don't worry, your secret is safe with me," he winks.
I sighed.
"You know the normal way doesn't apply with me because it's Anton kruz,"
"Yeah, it doesn't but who knows right?" he says mischievously. I stared at him an mouthed one word.
No.
He smiled evilly. I could feel chills and my body.
"No," I said.

One word. He doesn't understand.
"Riley, stop," I protested. He was pushing me and compared to a strong guy like him, I was probably pushing a wall.
He gave a final smile and a bonus.
A push.
There was Anton kruz, smiling and talking to the blonde girl. He was probably drunk. I sighed my breathing shallow. I looked at Riley, who gave me a thumbs up.
What am I doing?
Why am I doing this?
I was trembling.
Wow, this is my first time like this and somehow I liked the fact that I wasn't sure heartless and was even capable of feeling this way but also hated that I was helpless. I didn't understand my own feelings. It was so foreign.
I sighed.
I walked up to them.
"Anton?" my voice came as a squeal.
I'm scared.
Shut up and tell him. Maybe after that you'll be able to get some good studying.
I hadn't studied for an entire week. All because if the result and of course my foreign friend.
My feelings.
What the hell is wrong with me? Why am I acting like a desperate girl. What you heck happened to the cool me who didn't even like Anton kruz.
Oh yeah, love happened.
Why?
Because my entire life no one except Charlotte was beside me, but when Anton started caring. I guess I lost myself then.
I'm pathetic.
I mentally nodded.
I looked at Anton who was looking at me with uncertainty. While the blonde looked bothered.
"Can I talk to you?" I asked. He nodded.
He was still confused.
"Babe," blonde whined.
"I'll be back," Anton assured.
Something burned on my chest when he said that.
I looked at her. Beautiful. She was beautiful, and I was...?
Not even close.
I don't stand a chance.
I'm not doing this so that I can have a shot with him. I just wan to so that it'll make me feel better. This hole on my chest every time I'd see him with a girl would close.
"Yeah?" he asked when we had reached a silent place.
"Don't laugh," was all I could say.
He nodded. Curious.
I searched for Riley. He wasn't anywhere to be seen.
"Ummmm......the thing is....,"
Tell him. You'll be free from eternal damnation.
TELL HIM!
"I think...I'm...inlovewithyou,"
I blurted.
Yeah, he understood.
Why did he understand.
He'll probably laugh.
Laugh.......Laugh already.
I know it's stupid.
By he didn't, he just stood there, his eyes wide and filled with shock.
I was red as a tomato right now. I looked at him. I wished I had taken him outside, at the bonfire so that I didn't have to see his face so clearly right now.
"But," I said "Anton, you're you and I'm me, I didn't tell you this to expect anything in return, cause your Anton kruz, who could get anything and anyone, so don't think anything about this okay, just a confession, by a crazy mad girl,"
He didn't say anything but his expression changed. It was hurt.
I looked at the blonde, she was seated and staring at me from there.
I sighed.
"You should go back, she's waiting anyway congratulations kruz," I said smiling "And enjoy," I said finally and turned to walk out when a hand grabbed my by my elbow. I turned.
Shock was what I got.
Anton kruz had the most sad face on him. He looked hurt, frustrated and helpless. I stared at hi in shock. He never looked so gloomy. Ever.
A hand on my shoulder pulled  me back to reality.
"That was good, let's go," Riley whispered on my ear.
I turned back and nodded.
I smiled at a sulking Anton and walked back.
Anton didn't say anything.
I wonder why.
Maybe because it was unexpected coming from a person like me to a person like him. He must be feeling bad for a sad thing like me.
I breathed out.
Was I feeling any different?
Yes. I was.
I was feeling free.
I looked up at Riley and smiled.
Finally. Finally I'll be able to sleep.
I'd told him. How I felt for him and he hadn't laughed.
Maybe I wasn't so despicable after all.
I smiled.
"Well this was one heck of a 24 hour," I said and hopping on grinning Riley's back and irritating him, I spent the other half of the night.