I WISH...ZAROON KASHAF

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Next morning, Zaroon was waiting For Kashaf as he had some plans.
He quietly sat in the quadrangle and waited for her. Kashaf finally
entered the college without talking to anyone and without noticing any
thing.
The first period was over but Zaroon had not even once tried asking
her anything neither he came in front of her nor he looked at her.
Kashaf was happy not really but at least her tension for answering had
reduced.
After the class, Kashaf moved towards the library to get some books.
When she was going through the different sections she was suddenly
stopped by someone.
She immediately looked at the person and her face was overcome
with distress and fear.
"Itni dari kyu ho Kashaf?"
He asked angrily.
Kashaf just kept rolling her eyes with fear.
"Kuch bolo to sahi.Ya ab bologi bhi nahi."
"Mujhe jane do Zaroon"
Saying this Kashaf turned around to go but Zaroon had held her hand.
"Aj jawab de kar hi jana padega Kashaf. Bohot hogaya hai. Meri galti
to pata chale.Kahin yeh to nahi ki tumse dosti karna hi ek galti thi."
Kashaf with slight tears in her eyes looked at him and after a brief
pause Zaroon continued
"Lagta toh ab yehi hai hain na Kashaf. Kitni selfish nikli tum kaam
hogaya aur bhool gayi mujhe. Mujhe toh pehle hi samaaajh jana
chahye tha par main hi pagal tha . Akhir achanak kya hogaya Kashaf
ye sochne laga tha par tum toh pehle se hi aise ho. Door kyu hui tum
mujhse? Kya main tumhari khamoshi ko.."
Kashaf finally lost her patience and shouted
"Bas Zaroon bas. Sach toh yeh hi ki tum mere dost kabhi the hi nahi.
Tumhare jaisa ladka aur mera dost please. Haan main selfish hoon
isse tum mera kya bigar loge huh? Bas yaad rakhna nafrat hai mujhe
tumse aur tumhare jaise logon se samaajhe. Aur door rehne
mujhse meri parchai ke pas bhi mat ana. You get it?"
Finally bursting into tears Kashaf left from the library.
Zaroon was standing there blank. Her answers had hurt him, he had
not expected such harsh words but here it was it in front of him.
Osama, who was standing and listening to their full conversation
moved towards Zaroon.
"Zaroon."
He said softly.
"Mujhe koi baat nahi karni Osama."
Saying this Zaroon turned to leave the library.
"Zaroon maine tum dono ki puri baat suni aur ..."
"Acha to ab tu dusron ki baatein sunne laga."
Zaroon said while turning towards him.
Osama was quite aware of his situation so he remained calm.
"Zaroon baat samaaajh."
"Kya samaajhu huh?"
"Thand rakh aur meri baat dhyaan se sun."
"Osama tere bakwas ke liye time nahi hai mere pass."
Zaroon said angrily.
"Dude just listen to me ok. Tujhe kya lagta hai Kashaf is type ki ladki
hai jo wo kisi ko use karegi?"
"Par us ne khud kaha na."
"Usne kaha aur tune mann liya. Vishwas bhi koi cheez hoti hai keh to
tu bhi bohot kuch deta hai par use mean karta hai kya?"
"Kuch samaajh nahi araha."
"Wahi main tujhe samaajha raha hoon. Kya Kashaf ne pehle kabhi
tujhse aise baat ki?"
"Nahi."
"Kya tu aisa kuch expect kar raha tha?"
"Not at all."
"Kabhi Kashaf ne tujhe unwanted ya ye dosti ko zabardasti ki dosti
jaisa treat kiya?"
"No."
"Kya wo kabhi itna blunt ho sakti hai ?"
"Nahi par Isse kya sabit hota hai?"
"Sabit ye hota hai ki..pehle ek aur sawal ka jawab de. Tu jab pehli baar
Kashaf se mila to tujhe wo kaisi lagi."
After waiting for a minute Zaroon spoke
"Thori akru thori pagal thori sehmi si yet confident about right and
wrong. Thori alag nahi puri alag in sab ladkiyon se. Aisa koi soch hi
nahi sakta tha ki wo kisi ka dil dukha sakti hai apni baaton se..."
"Zaroon tu khud ye sab keh raha to samaajh ki wo aisa Kyu karegi?"
"Wahi to sawal Osama?"
"Dekh zarur uski koi majburi hai dude kyun ki main bhi Kashaf ko janta
hoon wo aisa kar hi nahi sakti aur wo bhi tere sath. Maine dekha
fresher's party pe wo tujhe sach me apna dost manti hai. Itna potray
koi apne faide ke liye bhi nahi kar sakta. Dukh to ye hai ki tu
samaajh nahi paya samaajhe."
Zaroon just nodded his head and smiled.
"Sahi kaha dukh to yeh hai ki main samaajh nahi paya par
Osama abhi bhi main confident nahi is baat ko lekar. "
Understanding his problems Osama sighed and said
"Koi baat nahi stay back after College tujhe khud yakeen ho jayega."
Saying this Osama ran out of the library while leaving a puzzled
Zaroon.
Kashaf on the other hand rushed to the washroom but as she knew
this situation would come sooner or later she calmed herself and
moved out of the washroom.
She sat in a bench in the quadrangle with a book in her hand. The
college was nearly empty but Kashaf was waiting for her last class as
it was an important one. Sidra too had left on Kashaf's plead.
Kashaf was reading the book when her phone rang. She casually
picked it up and was about to say something when she heard a voice
from the other side.
"Hello Ma...Maya..Zaroon ka Zaroon ka..."
"Zaroon kya? Kaun bol raha hai?"
Kashaf asked immediately.
"Zaroon ka college ke bahar accident hogaya hai."
"Kaun bol raha hai?"
Before she could ask anything the line from the other side was cut.
Kashaf throwing her books and everything rushed outside the door
with tears in her eyes when she finally bumped into someone
"Itni jaldi me kaha Ja rahi ho?"
"Osama wo mujhe jane do."
"Batao to Kashaf."
"Wo mujhe phone aya tha."
She said in distress and almost trying to rush from there.
"Kiska Kashaf?"
"Pata nahi Osama par?"
"Pata nahi matlab sab theek hai na Kashaf?"
"Zaroon ka acccident hogaya hai?"
"Kya?"
"Han Osama isliye mujhe jane do."
Kashaf said with tension on her face.
"Kashaf lagta hai kisi ne tumhare sath mazak kiya hai. "
Kashaf gave him a strange look so Osama continued
"Mera matlab hai ya to kisi aur Zaroon ka accident hua hai ya koi
tumhe pareshan kar raha tha.."
Kashaf cutting him in between immediately placed her question in
front of him
"Kya matlab hai tumhara?"
"Kashaf peeche muro aur dekho Zaroon sahi salamat khada hai waha
canteen ke pas."
Kashaf turned around in a fraction of a second and closed her eyes on
seeing while a lone pair of tear made its way towards her cheeks.
Osama saw the change in her and Zaroon too noticed everything
from the corner of his eyes. "Kashaf tum ro kyu rahi ho?"
Kashaf immediately wiped her tears and said
"Osama mujhe jana hai."
"Kashaf ek baat batati jao. Zaroon ke liye itni tension kyu? Tumhe to
usse aur uske jaise logon se nafrat hai na?"
Osama very smartly placed his question in front of her.
"Osama mujhe usse nafrat hai par mere ander Insaniyat zarur
hai."
Saying this Kashaf moved out from there.
Zaroon was shocked he expected some reaction but the kind of
reaction she gave was surely indicating something else. Meanwhile
Osama came and stood next to him
"Dude ab kya lagta hai?"
"Ab teri baat samaaajh ayi.Thanks dude."
"Its ok. Shukar hai tujhe samaaajh aya. May be Zaroon tujhe use
abhi thoda time dena chahye."
"You are right dude. Thoda time."
Saying this he smiled and then the moved towards the class.
Kashaf was quiet terrified with what happened. She cursed the person
who did it and finally after attending the class left the college.
--- At night, Zaroon was sitting on the bed while thinking about
Kashaf's reaction.
"Kashaf baat kya hai? Tumne mujhe bilkul confuse kar diya hai. Ek
taraf tum itni karwi baatein karti ho aur ek taraf aisa reaction?"
"Kaisa reaction Mayu?" Ghazala asked who had oveheard Zaroon.
"Kuch nahi Maa acha ek baat puchun?"
"Do puch lo"
"Maa agar koi apse kahe ki wo apko bilkul pasand nahi karta par ap ke
chot lagne par wo bina kuch jane react kare to kya matlab hua?"
"Aisi question kyu kar raha?"
"Maa wo psychology ka question hai..."
"Acha to matlab ki wo bhi admi jhut keh raha hai. Actions speak more
than words. Ye to tu janta hi hai. Matlab ki apki sacchi care karta hai
wo admi.Kuch samaaajh aya?"
Ghazala asked softly.
"Haan Maa sab samaaajh agaya ab tum jao."
Zaroon said in a hurry.
"Mayu tu humesha aise karta hai..."
Before she could complete he added
"Maa choro na ye kabhi aur discuss karenge."
"Theek hai theek hai jati hoon."
When Ghazala stepped out Zaroon was about to turn when she again
came back
"Waise mujhe nahi lagta ki Psycology tera subject hai."
Smiling and understanding things she moved out of the room leaving a
bit blushing Zaroon.
"Dude why are you blushing? Waise Kashaf tum jhut kyu keh rahi ho.
Aisi kya majburi ho sakti hai? Tum bataogi to nahi mujhe hi pata
lagana padega."
Zaroon after thinking a bit went off to sleep.
Next morning Osama was waiting for Zaroon in the college as he
had some plans. On seeing Zaroon he immediately wished him
"Hey dude."
"Hi..koi kaam?"
"Yes actually main apne ghar pe party rakhne ki soch raha hoon.
Saturday evening."
"Nahi dude kuch mood nahi hai."
"Come on main Kashaf ko bhi convince kar raha hoon."
"Wo nahi ayegi."
Zaroon said while smirking.
Kashaf who was passing by them heard it and stopped there and hid
herself to know what they were talking about.
"Main use convince kar lunga dude."
Zaroon had seen her so he immediately used his wit.
"Oh please woh nakchari ladki kabhi nahi ayegi. Gussa toh mano aj kal
uske naak pe rehta hai. Rehne de mat bula use phaltu ka party spoil ho
jayega leave her yaar."
"Ajeeb behki behki baatein kyu kar rahe ho?"
"Behki behki lagta hai uske tarah tumhara bhi dimag kharab ho chuka
hai..by the way thanks for informing."
Saying this he left the place leaving Osama in a state of shock.
"Zaroon ko koi nahi samaaajh sakta ye sach hai."
Sighing he was about to leave the place when he saw Kashaf.
"Hey Kashaf mujhe tumse kuch baat karni thi."
"Hi..haan kaho."
"Saturday evening mere ghar party hai mere cousin ke ane ki khushi
me tum aur Sidra ana ples..."
Kashaf immediately replied even before he could complete "Haan hum
zarur ayenge."
Osama was amazed at seeing Kashaf like this.
"Ok then 7:30 sharp."
Kashaf smiled and left the place.