When I Get You Alone

Chapter4 -Final Part of the Flashback-

As she headed down to the lake, still in a haze of lust from the actions of the night before, Cayla dreaded what was about to happen. She didn’t know if things would work out for the best or result in the worst thing imaginable. Jared on the other hand had no clue what he was about to be questioned with. He was just happy he was going to have some alone time with Cayla. He was excited to see her again, excited for another chance to kiss those enticing lips of hers, another chance to touch her baby soft skin. He just had to keep in mind that they were out in the open now, not in the comfort and privacy of Cayla’s basement.

Jared was the first one to the dock. The lake was secluded right now, it was a first since it always had someone fishing or boating on it. It kind of gave Jared an iffy feeling, now he wasn’t sure if why Cayla wanted to see him was for anything good. After five minutes of waiting the suspense was beginning to kill him. He needed to see Cayla and now.

On her way down to the dock Cayla could see Jared sitting at the edge with his long legs dangling over the water. She just wanted to hug him and never let him go. She couldn’t believe she didn’t think of everything before having sex with Jared. She wouldn’t know what to do if she had to give up that amazing part of him that she never knew about before, less their friendship.

Cayla crept up behind Jared being sure not to make a sound; she wrapped her hands around his eyes and whispered down into his ear “Guess who?” Without a second thought Jared spun his body around scooping up Cayla from her waist and her knees, she was taken by surprise and immediately wrapped her arms around his neck. Jared placed her on his lap and took this chance to place a sweet kiss on Cayla’s luscious lips.

“Jare…” Cayla was holding back tears she didn’t want to lose Jared but she didn’t know what else to think.

“What’s wrong Lah” He called Cayla by the nickname he had given her when they were 6 years old trying to stop the tears that were forming in her eyes from falling.

“Jare it’s just that…” Cayla began to say but got choked up again.

“Talk to me Lah, you know I’ve always been here for you. You're my best friend. Just because Jordan is your best friend doesn’t mean you aren’t mine.”

That was all Cayla needed to hear before the dams of her eyes crumbled. The tears would not stop flowing down her now flushed cheeks. “Red, I don’t know what last night meant. I mean I do. It was amazing no doubt. But I mean I live in Pittsburgh with Jord and you're going to Arizona. I mean what does that mean for us, and for you. What did last night mean for you I mean, I really lik-”

Cayla hadn’t called Jared Red since they were 14, he knew this was important to her, that he needed to make her stop crying and freaking out so they could both get out what they needed to say.

She was talking a hundred miles an hour. Jared had not thought any of this out. This was the iffy feeling he had while he took his spot at the dock. He didn’t know what to say to her or how to explain things to her so he did what he knew how to do best. He kissed her quiet. He literally took the breath away from Cayla, her breathing was short and stiff from the crying and with the sudden kiss she lost her train of thought and melted in his arms. Momentarily all her worries flew out of the window. She was in Jared’s arms, where she felt comfortable and safe.

After gathering up his thoughts, Jared finally ended the kiss, hesitantly but he ended it. Jared being 6’4 and Cayla being a mere 5’6 she still had to look at him while they were sitting down. She looked up at him with wide eyes taken back by his actions, even if she did enjoy them she was taken by surprise.

“Jared…” Cayla began apprehensively

“No Cayla. I want to tell you everything.” Jared began looking down at her to make sure she was all ears. Once she locked eyes with him and stayed quiet he continued.

“Cayla last night was amazing to say the least. I mean I was hoping for something to happen between us last night, whether it was because we drank too much or even if it turned out as a dare. These feelings I have for you right now have blind-sided me. I mean, I’ve known you my entire life, we’re practically brother and sister. But there was something about my trip home that I anticipated. It was you. But it was a different kind of anticipation. I didn’t want to come and hang out with you like we always have, in the basement playing video games or watching movies. I wanted to come home and kiss you until I couldn’t hold my breath any longer, until my lips hurt. I wanted to keep you in my arms as long as you would let me. Once we shared that kiss in the barn I knew I needed more of you. The kiss didn’t satisfy what I thought was just an itch to kiss someone. I wanted you, all of you. I guess you could say the few drinks I had encouraged it but I wasn’t wasted out of my mind. I knew what I was going to your house for and I was hoping that you would have me. And when you did…” Jared paused staring out at the calm lake. Remembering the events of the night before, wishing he could go back and relive it. Or maybe that it could happen again. Cayla just sat there trying to take all of this info in, she did not expect this from Jared, ever.

He continued, “I mean yeah I want to be with you. Like my feelings for you have taken me over night and now I don’t know what to do really. I mean you live with Jordan in Pittsburgh and it’s not like I am going to ask you to move with me. A. Its just to soon for anything like that and B. I cant just take you from Jordan like that. And that leaves us to think about our families. What are they going to do when they find out. I mean I don’t know really. I want to be with you but-”

Cayla cut him off with most of this sinking in she finally had something to say.

“Jare, I don’t want you worrying about that, I mean about our families. They don’t need to know what happened between us. I mean you have your career to worry about. I want you to enjoy your time in Phoenix. I don’t want to rush into a relationship, I mean if it’s going to be long distance I can wait for you. You're worth waiting for. But you don’t have to wait for me; I mean we’re not exclusive; we are not even a we. We need to take this one step at a time. So now this is what I want you to think about: You are going to have girls crawling all over you in Arizona. I don’t want you to worry about hurting me. You do what you want to do, and when the time comes we will work out, our time will come. Right now we have no strings attached. We can date who we want and we’ll still be best friends and not have to worry about jealousy or lying or cheating. Things will go back to how they were.”

After saying this Cayla knew it was all a lie. She knew she would worry about Jared finding a girl out in Phoenix and he would forget about her. After what happened last night she didn’t want to give him up, but she figured it was for the best, the best for him, that it was what he wanted. Her heart broke as the lies spilled from her mouth. All she could hope for was that one-day, maybe just maybe Jared could be all hers.

Jared couldn’t believe his ears. Cayla wanted him to be with other girls, not to worry about hurting her. He was so confused but kept quiet. He was too taken back. He wanted to be with Cayla. He wanted to make it work, he did want to take her from Jordan even if he would never admit it out loud. But if this is what she wanted, he would do anything for her. Even though he was sure he would never find a girl like her. He wouldn’t admit that to her either. He just looked down at Cayla and waited for her hypnotizing eyes to meet his.

“Cayla, anything for you.”

And that was the end of their serious conversation. For the next hour they spent time reliving childhood memories and high school stories. This is what they were used to. Being friends, but how long could they out their feelings away to stay friends.