I Fell In Love With A God

All Laughs and Giggles

I looked around the blackness. I wanted to freak out but I didn't. The place was so calm and relaxing. I just floated there and looked around.

It was completely black but I didn't mind it, I loved it actually. I never really liked people so this place was perfect because no one was here. I was completely alone.

I giggled and laughed to myself. "I'm alone! I'm alone! I'm so happy!" That doesn't mean I didn't miss my family though. I really am enjoying this too.

"I'm free of people! I'm free of rules!" I laughed more, not being able to control it. I suddenly had an idea and tried swimming around. I laughed even louder and more as I did it. I swam around the blackness.

"I have no one around. Not even that dick head transfer student, Blitz. I'm so happy! I really hate him too. And the fact that he kissed me! Oh! That makes my blood boil!" I thought to myself as I spun around.

I laughed more as I looked around. "I love this place! I really love this place! I have no one around!"

I laughed and giggled like I was a child, something I hadn't done in a very, very, very long time.

In fact, this place reminded me of something from my childhood. I use to go off into my room when I was upset or alone and I'd sit in my closet, close my eyes and travel through a world of blackness just like this. I'd do all sorts of thing but mostly I'd think to myself. It really helped when I was angry.

Angry. A word I haven't used in a long time either. Amazing. I wish I had Blue with me though, everything was better with her.

I use to be really timid and shy when I was a kid until my dad made me go to that army camp. Then I started having the issues.

I had learned confidence, fighting, strength, and even parts of the body that were unsuspected weak points.

But I also got some anger skills from it too. I didn't mind though because Blue helped me through it all.

I laughed and smiled as I traveled around it. I sighed and blinked. I never really have had this kind of time to myself in such a long time.

My parents were busy working all day and then I have school. And after school I have to watch over my brothers, taking care of them for most of the night. I'm usually in bed by the time my parents come back home.

I floated around some more, taking in a deep breath of the smell of lilac and caramel. I smiled and stretched out. My ankle even moved.

I did nothing though because it didn't hurt. "It didn't hurt..." I thought to myself then chuckled.

I continued to swim around, having a lot of fun.

Fun....

"Fun..."

Something I haven't had in a long time...

The last time I had it was when my dad had took me with him when I was five. He had gone shopping and decided to take me along and buy me a diamond necklace.

I still have that necklace. I always wore it too though I made sure that it didn't show. It was pretty expensive but I valued it as if it was priceless.

It was something he got me for forcing me to go to that stupid army camp. I love him anyways and my mom and brothers as well. I couldn't imagine my life without them.