Solace - BoyxBoy

Chapter Ten

  "Then I will wait."

  "Austen..."  I grinned at the innocence in his soft whisper, and him laying his head on my chest. "Do you remember when you sang me to sleep?"

  "Yes.  You were scared."

  "You should do that more often.  You have an amazing voice."

  "How about you sing to me?"

  "I suck though..."

  "I've heard you sing before... You don't suck.  Just sing whatever song pops into your head."

  "You put your arms around me and I believe, that it's easier for you to let me go.  You put your arms around me and I'm home."  He sang softly to me.  He sounded amazing... I was interested in his song choice though...  

  "See, you sounded beautiful.  What made you think of that song?"

  "I don't know... Just  a good song..."  I could tell he was lying again, but I ignored it, nowing he would tell me eventually.

  "It is."  There was a sweet silence between us, which made me want to know what he was thinking about even more, but I couldn't ask because Naomi returned with her boyfriend/step brother at her side.  Then something hit me... Naomi said her niece cut the seatbelts... Naomi didn't even have a neice...

Zeek's POV  Back to present (after Zeek came out and ran away)

I didn't know where I was going, nor did I care.  I didn't turn around to see if anyone was chasing me, and I didn't turn around to go back.  I just ran.  I saw a couple disgusted faces, and a few confused ones... I refused to look at Austen's.  My phone rang, making me stop and lean against a tree.  It was Naomi.

  "Naomi?  Hey, do you think you could take me home?  I'm sorry, but I guess I can't handle it..."

  "Zeek?  This is Austen, I lost my phone somewhere.  Where the hell are you?  Why'd you run off like that"  My heart broke at the sound of his voice.

  "Austen... I'm sorry... I don't know where I am."

  "Stay there, I'm coming to get you."  I was about to argue, but he hung up.  I shoved my phone into my pocket and continued running, faster though.  I didn't want to see Austen right now... I didn't want to see the disappointment in his face, or the disgust in his eyes...

  "ZEEK!  ZEEK STOP!"  I heard a deep voice yell.  I recognized it immediately, and it only made me want to run faster.  I heard the engine of a car being shut off and a door slam, followed by frantic footsteps behind me.  Austen grabbed my hand, forcing me to stop.  Why did he have to be in cross country?  Why did he have to run so freaking fast.  "Zeek, come here."  He surprised me by wrapping his arms around me in a tight bear hug.  "Shhh, it's okay."  I didn't realize how hard I was crying...

  "No- but you- I'm gay, and you hate me and I don't wanna lose you and I-"  Austen shushed me with his hand.

  "Zeek, I could never hate you.  I don't want to lose you either.  I'm gonna always be by your side, even if you don't want me there.  I'm sorry you had to say that in front of everyone... But why did you run away from me?"

  "I didn't want to see the disgust in your eyes."  I looked down like normal... Austen just chuckled lightly, ignoring the fact that rain was beginning to fall heavily.

  "Zeek, I'm not disgusted by you at all.  Never will be..."  I looked up at him and smiled, staring right into his beautiful eyes.

  "Thank you."  He grinned and hugged me tighter to him.

  "Please don't do this again, you had me in panic mode."

  "I'm sorry..."  He let go of me and wiped the rain from myface as it mixed with my tears.

  "Close your eyes."  I looked at him funny, but did it anyways.  "I need to tell you something too, but it's a lot easier this way..."  His statement puzzled me... "Zeek, I've beenn meaning to say this for a very long time, and now that you told me, I can tell you.  I'm gay too."  Brain... Dead... Can't... Process... Heart... Exploding...  "There's more..."  He whispered nervously.

  "What?"  I kept my eyes closed tightly, expecting him to continue speaking, but he didn't.  He didn't tell me what he was going to say... He showed me...  Austen pressed his lips softly to mine.

Fire.

Passion.

Electricity.

Desire........

Love?     Those were the things I felt while kissing my best friend...  My hands cupped his face, while his were at my hips... then he pulled away gently.

  "Open your eyes."  I shook my head.  "Why not?  I want to see your eyes..."

  "You'll disappear."  I heard him laugh.

  "You're not dreaming Zeek.  This is real.   Zeek, I love you." I opened my eyes... but he was gone... The rain was gone, the road was gone, the tree was gone... All I saw was a pasty white wall, and I heard an annoying beep at my side.

  "Zeek?  Are you awake?"  I looked to my right and saw Austen sitting in a chair, with puffy eyes... That's when it hit me... It was a dream... Austen never kissed me... He never came out to me... De didn't love me...  I was in a hospital...

  "Austen... What happened?"

  "You ran away from the party after you said...something, and I came looking for you... It was raining and you slipped and hit your head."

  "Did anything else happen when you found me?"  He shook his head, and my heart sunk in disappointment... At least I told him one secret...

The ending was bad... sorry...      Originally this was the chapter they get together, but I thought it would be too soon in the story...  It won't be long... I promise :P   DON'T KILL ME PLEASE!!! Or they will NEVER be together.... MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA