In My Life, I Love Him More

He blew his mind out in a car, but i just had to look 9

I woke up the next morning and looked out my window. To my surprise there were people taking furniture out of John's house. I ran down stairs, not caring that i was in my night gown and rushed outside to John's house.

He came outside and noticing me, came over. 

"Whats going on?" I asked.

"Im moving." He frowned. 

"But, but you cant!" I exclaimed.

"My Aunty cant afford this house." He had an angry ring in his voice.

"You wont be far. Will you?"

"No. Lets go to the park. Hm?" He asked.

"Sure, let me get dressed." I hurried and put on some cloths then re joined John.

We walked to the park and sat on the bench. It was quiet and peace full.

"Ill still be close Sam. Im just movin' a couple streets away." 

"But then i cant see you every day." I said.

"I know. But listen ill see you tonight. Ok? I hate to move to. I pleaded...begged Mimi to stay."

"Oh well. do you know your address?" 

"Yes, here." He handed me a slip of paper. 

"John! This is like almost two hours away." I gasped.

"I know. We cant see each other every single day." 

"Cant we meet...some where!"

"Near Strawberry Fields? You know where that is?"

I nodded. 

"Meet there, its half way, at lunch time. Then we'll go into town and get lunch."

"What if things change. Will you be going to the same school?" 

He frowned and looked away. "Last year i was expelled. At the end so i could make a clean cut of things. I didn't have to tell anyone."

"expelled. So ill rarely see you!" I held back tears. 

"Dont cry, please. Ill go the whole way to your house, its not that far you know."

"Yeah but it'll have to stop when school comes around."

"Thats true." John frowned.

"No it wont!" He exclaimed.

"It wont?"

"Nope."

"what are you thinking?" i asked.

"Im not thinkin' anything im just..." John paused.

"I love you John. But i don't want you to move."

"I don't want to move away from you or the others." He wiped a tear that rolled down my face away.

i cant cry in front of him...I thought to myself and held the tears back. 

"I better get back. Mimi will be looking for me." John got up.

I pulled him into a hug. 

"Sh, please don't cry." He said in a soft voice and stroked my hair.

His grip got tighter and he pulled me away from me. He walked quickly away with out looking. I understood, he didn't want me to see him cry.

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"Where have you been Sam?" My mother asked when i came back in.