what is it
it's not being able to sleep because you are waiting for a text
it's slowly beginning to avoid each other as the shyness grows
and no matter how many times you tell yourself
"just say hi"
all you can do is stare
and it's stares like this
the obvious ones
that you pretend are secret
it's caring about how you look
your hair; weight; face
it's not wanting to embarrass yourself
but always feeling embarrassed
you can't speak
and it's so goddamn cute
it's the subtle hints
the ups and the downs
it is pure hope
and every single time
it is the same
