ASHLEY'S P.O.V:
It's been a week since my dad shot himself. I keep trying to think positive but i can't. He said he loved me. Did he really love me , or was he just trying to make me feel guilty? Did he just say that because he couldn't think of anything else to say as his final words? Why did he have to kill himself? If he had just stayed alive , refrained from pulling the trigger , i could have gotten the answer to my questions. I can't get my mind of it. I can't sleep. Everytime i go to eat something , i want to just throw up. I feel horrible. If i hadn't have been born , none of this would have happend. My mom , sister and dad would be alive. They could have been a happy family. I deserve to be dead. I am not worth the air i breath. Andy had gone out. His parents were away. Now would be the perfect time to kill myself? What was i doing still sat here , i didn't have long. If i wanted this to work , i would need to be quick. I went in to the bathroom. I opend the cubard. There was a pack of razors and some pills. I grabbed them all and went back in to Andy's room. I wrote a note.
Andy , I am so sorry but i have to do this. I can't take it anymore. I have so many unanswerd questions that keep nagging at my head. I can't sleep , I can't eat. I am 100% sure that a handsome boy like yourself can find someone better. I am no good for you , I am posion , Just like my dad. Everyone will be better off without me. I am not worth the air i breath , I am a horrible person. But please for me , remember this , i love you dearly. Please try and stay strong , i will be watching over you my fallen angel. I love you so much , i will miss you very much. Goodbye & Goodnight my darling. -Ashley.
I rolled up my sleves and opend the pack of razors. I took one out. I glided it across my wrist pressing harder and harder each time. This wasn't doing the trick. I needed something sharper. Andy had a unused photoframe under his bed. I picked it up and smashed it on the bedside counter. It shatterd in to several different peices. I picked the biggest piece up which happend to be the sharpest. This should do. I dug it in and dragged it across my wrist , instantly , blood flowed out. I made 6 horrizontal cuts and 6 vertical cuts. I felt faint. It was working. I tried to open the pills. I couldn't open the bottle so i tried the others. I managed to take 9 Sleeping pills. I tried to get in to the other bottle of pills. I couldn't do it. I needed to take these for the plan to work. I tried my hardest to get it open. Suddenly the door opend and Andy stood there. His jaw dropped along with the bags he was carrying. He threw himself at me and tugged the pills out of my hand
"ANDY GET OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed with tears streaming down my face.
Andy threw the pills across the room and just held me. He started rocking me. I was crying my eyes out and couldn't stop. Andy picked me up and placed me on his bed. He brought a first aid kit and started cleaning my wrists up. He then changed me in to some pyjamas. By now the sleeping pills were starting to kick in. I couldn't seem to keep my eyes opend. Andy tucked me up in bed.
"Go to sleep baby. You need to sleep the pills of. Don't worry , I'm not going to leave you and I'll be here when you wake up." Andy said to me. I just nodded my sleepily. He kissed my forehead and just drifted off to a much needed sleep.
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Hey guys , just thought I'd do a quick update on my Andley seen as i haven't updated it for god knows how long , hope you like it , sorry it's so short! Well , hope you like , feel free to give me feedback and ideas :) Also . don't be scared to request :)<3
