so what if im happy

with out you part 2

(Jakes pov)

Once you think your life is going great and nothing bad can happen. You think wrong. Everything comes crashing down. I returned back to my hospital bed and just layed there crying. Wondering how our lives would have been tougher, wondering how we would have been if this never happened. Why me I thought to my self. As hot tears filled my eyes I began to think what if I never get out of hear what if Jake is out and living his life what if he forgot about me. The lyrics to skinny love by birdy kept ringing through my ears

I told you to be patient I told you to be fine

I told you to be balanced I told you to be kind

Now all your love is wasted then who the hell was I?

Cause now I’m breaking at the britches

and at the end of all your lines

Who will love you? Who will fight?

And who will fall, far behind?

It just reminds me of everything just being over for me and my life was gone. I had nothing to live for anymore the love of my life probley dead. Was I just wasting time with Ryan maybe he did this on purpose because he didn’t want to break my heart. He would rather kill himself then be with me. I was thinking of the worst things that could have possibly happened. I felt ashamed because I cared for him so much. I was letting my mind get the best of me, maybe I just needed to get some rest, I’m sure he would not do this to me. As I lay there thinking about why things are the way they are and what I was going to do when I got out of here. I heard foot step coming towards the room. I saw I small nurse enter the room “sir you may leave if you wish the doctor should be here to check on you shortly and then you will be discharged” she said with a friendly smiley on her face and left the room. I didn’t want to leave, were would I go, I have my parents house but things will never be the same without Ryan who would I look forward to see every day, I don’t have friends, I guess I have to start my life over. The doctor walked in “Jake is that right” “yes sir” I said barley above a whisper. “how you feeling” “great” I had a fake smile plastered across my face “good” well your free to go. “Hear a prescription you may be experiencing a bit or soreness for a few days just take these twice a day one in the morning and one at night. And with that I left the hospital, not knowing what to do now. I called for a cab on the pay phone. A car pulled up and I got in a old man greeted me with a smile “were to” “7834 raven crest rd” “will do” we arrived at my old house I payed the man as I got out. Walking up to the door reminds me I don’t have anyone hear but me. I unlocked the door with the spare key that was always left for Ryan when he would come. I threw the key on the counter and heded up the stairs, to my room and it was not as I had remberd it, some things were familiar and some were not my usual stacks and piles of clothing were not on the floor as usual and there was a box on my bed with a note next to it.

Dear Jake

We’re sorry we heard what happened to you and Ryan we wish you the best of luck,

I couldn’t even read the note anymore I knew the note was from my former friends I grabbed the box and opened it was filled with pictures of me and Ryan and all of our times tougher but the one thing that I hadn’t noticed before. Was a small red box I opened it and there was a bracelets and it had Ryan and Jake forever not matter what. As tears forming, daring to spill from my eyes I shut the box and slid it under my bed and layed down hoping I would never wake up. A life without Ryan is no life for me. I will be with him soon no matter what it takes….