Second Chance

Chapter Fourteen

I was backstage at my performance with Sherika. I was seated at my vanity with my head down. Sherika came over gently touching my shoulder. "You okay Annabelle?" She asked. -- "No, but I will be Rikabear." I said unsure of my own words. "Umm guys, could you give us a few minutes?" She asked my glam team. "Nika, come sit" she said and she patted the spot beside her. I got up and sat down laying my head across her lap. She stroked my hair and almost immediately the tears fell..."why aren't I enough Rika?! What do they have that I don't?!" I slightly whispered against her legs. I had been beating myself up so much lately. I just didn't get Meek and I guess I never would. "You'd know if you answered his calls babe! He doesn't even know what he did!" -- "Well if he doesn't know neither do I! I know what I saw Sherika! He looked me in my eyes and continued on with her like I wasn't there! After all the times he said he wouldn't hurt me, after the all times he said he wouldn't make me cry! And that's all I've been doing!" I told her feeling myself getting angry. "I don't have time for this! I have to get ready!" I said getting up and walking away.
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Oscar flat ironed my blonde bob neatly and I dressed in all black... With sneakers for a change! (Outfit in multimedia) there was a change in the shows direction... So unfortunately I would share the stage with meek before doing my own set... I waited in the wings as Wayne and Meek performed their verses to "my niggas" and before you knew it, I got my cue...
I strutted out right past meek to the front of the stage rapping....
I-I-I just got 250 thousand dollars for a verse, nigga...I-I don't know, is it me or it's your thirst, nigga? You nig, you niggas ain't got no joints...Like a injured Chris Paul, you ain't got no point, I just come through with a couple bossy bitches..They get money too, they some "don't cross me bitches" Flossy bitches, Sergio Rossi, bitches...And if we at the game then it's floor seat, bitches! I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I ride for my bitches! I'm so fuckin' rich I cop rides for my bitches...Dollar menu fries, apple pies, out the bitches...I drop a freestyle and get a rise outta bitches; bitches, my bitches
I need a nigga with some Diff'rent Strokes - Todd Bridges...Shout out to my MAIN bitches and my side bitches...Need a nigga with some good neck - ostriches
... My niggas

The entire time I could feel Meek's eyes on me but I ignored him... You could feel the tension in the room, but whatever... The show must go on. Everyone hugged and kissed me and left the stage and I walked past meek over to my DJ... Getting my own special mic I yelled out "WHERE MY BOSS BITCHES AT?!!!" This would be my first time performing this song and I'm never as hell, I hope my fans like it! The beat dropped and I was feeling it, I looked over to the wing to see Meek watching me, staring me down... I cut the track and gave it to the acapella... "Hold up... Cause what the fuck? This ain't Chanel nigga?custom down?
Wtf? I ain't smokin hot? bust me down?!!!?
U da same clown nigga dat was runnin me down?Now u all up in da sauce, cuz u wanna be down? I said rule #1 to be a boss ass bitch...Neva let a clown nigga try to play u
And if he play u, then rule #2 Fuck his best friends, then make dem yes men...And get a dick pic and then u press send
And send a red heart, and send a kissy face
And tell him dat his friends love how ya pussy taste" I said it harshly and Meek's face turned up at me, but I didn't care! This is what happens with you hurt Onika! I was done yet, I had one more song to do to drive my point home! "Where my ladies at?!!! I can't hear y'all?!!!! I said where my ladiessssss???? Never let a ain't ass shit nigga get the best of you! It's never what it seems believe me!! Can I do one more song for y'all?!!! The crowd was hype! The best dropped for "looking ass niggas" and I could tell they was feeling it! I walked out the stage triumphant but tired... As I headed back to my room I passed Meek who instantly grabbed my arm! "Get the fuck off me Robert!" I hissed at him. Snatching my arm away I headed to my room to change to head to my hotel... All I wanted was to sleep... "This is over Nic!" Meek told me... But, it was. I was cool...