Mr&Mrs Runaway (L.H) (Book 2)

Chapter 20 {Goodbye For Now}

Luke's pov

Today was the day I dread the most. The sky is bright, the birds are chirping, and Mother Nature is happy. With nothing to be happy about. No one should be happy on the day of Charlie's funeral.

I pull myself out of bed and walk over to now, my closet. I pull out a black button down, and black skinny jeans with all black converse. Today will be interesting.

"Good evening ladies and gentlemen. We are here to say goodbye to our beloved Charlotte Rose Hemmings." The priest starts and I feel the tears coming already. "Before I get started would Luke please join me up here?" He asks and I nod. I get up and walk to the front, which is near Charlie's open casket. I can't see her like this right now. I walk up to the podium and clear my throat. I take a deep breath before I start to talk.
"Hi, I never thought I would have to be here, doing this. I want to talk about Charlie. Where do I begin? There is so much to talk about. But let's go to the beginning. God I remind it like it was just yesterday. When I was 7 I moved away from my horrible life in Sydney, to start a new life with my mom, dad, and older brothers. I thought life would be horrible, I didn't know anyone and everything was dark. Until I saw her. She was my light, my rock, my back bone. The pain killers to my life. She was many things, and scared wasn't one of them. She was strong for me. She was there for me through all hell, and still helped me smile. In year 6 My parents died, and I had move back with my aunt and uncle. And my brothers went to foster care. I lost touch with Charlie and that's the thing that killed me the most; not having Charlie to take my pain away. I was in the same situation I'm in now. Lost and broken. Charlotte Hemmings is not just some girl. She's my girl. There's no was about it. I will love her till the end of all time. Not even death can wash my love for her away. And one of the things that will make me love her forever, is the beautiful baby girl she gave me. I love you Charlotte Rose Hemmings. No matter if I'm saying this into a dark void. Everyone needs to know how much I love you, and how ill never stop. Goodbye for now Charlotte Rose. Goodbye for now." I finish wiping my tears and taking a seat. Everyone starts to clap, and I hear sniffles coming from the crowd. Most of them are from Emily's and Sophie's direction. Out of everyone in the group Sophie is taking it the worst. Except for me. Sophie didn't leave her room for 3 days straight after Charlie died. One of the worst things about Charlie being gone is how quiet the house it. Her beautiful laugh doesn't fill the air anymore. Her singing doesn't stagger through the house like it used to. Her voice is no longer calling my name. Her hands no longer in mine. Her lips no longer on mine. There's so many things I took for granted. So many times where I wish I could go back, and redo. So many things I said that keep me up at night, and pick at my brain.

After the funeral everyone leaves. Leaving me alone at Charlie's grave.
Charlotte Rose Hemmings
Beloved Daughter, Wife, Mother
Loved Forever And Always
April 17th, 1997- December 13th 2020

I never thought in a million years that I would be here so soon.
"Hey Charlie, it's me Luke. I just wanted to say, I miss you. I miss you so much Charlie. You have no idea. It's different from when I'm on tour, and I know you'll be home waiting for me. It's different because now I know, you won't be there waiting for me. You won't be there when I want to kiss you, or hug you, or even touch you. Charlie you have no idea how hard it is for me. I'm being strong for Liz but it hurts so much waking up at 3 am every morning and not seeing you there curled up next to me. Or passing pictures of us everyday as I walk down the empty halls. It's so hard to be happy without you here. Because I don't know if you know this, but you are my getaway. My source of happiness. My light in my dark world. My breath of fresh air. And I saw you get taken away from me. In the blink of an eye. You were gone. And I couldn't stop it. That's the worst thing of all babe. I couldn't stop it. You were going through so much pain, and I couldn't stop it. I saw you the way I never wanted to. In pain and hopeless. Because you aren't. You were never hopeless. You always saw the bright side of everything. Even me. Charlie I can't live without you. You never really know what you have until it's gone. And I realize that what I had, can never be replaced. And you not being here sucks so much. You saw me in a way no one else did. You saw the true me. Not the me everyone think I am. You didn't run away like everyone else did. You stayed, even though I didn't deserve a second, and third chance. I fucked up so much but you still loved me. And I could never thank you enough for giving me another chance. I love you so much Charlie, and I wish I was the one shot. I'd rather you be alive and healthy, and me 6 feet underground. I can't live without you. But I'm going to have to try. It's going to be so fucking hard. But goodbye for now Charlie."