"So..How are you? How have you been ?"
I finally dare to make eye contact with her and ask softly.
" So you decide to ask your girlfriend that, after three hours sitting in the same room but avoiding her eyes ? You are a coward!"
She replied with an angry tone that I'm very unfamiliar.
And I hold my breath. Damn. What was that !
I still haven't gain my composer but seeing she trying to leave silently.
I react without even my realisation.
...
She was forcingly held by me in the wall of the lobby.
She keeps trying to Escape from me but I gently also strongly stopping her to release her from myself.
" What you just said? ... girlfriend? You are my girlfriend.? " I'm even so breathless to say it.
She refused to meet my eyes.. her beautiful face so close to mine..I can smell the perfume she put her on the neck.. I didn't even knew when I put my chin on her collar bone .. the fragrance of her skin is so floral that i close my eye in a second.. god this dream or something?
" This is sin you know that !"
She wishper.
Weakly trying to push me back.
But she is failing there and she knows it also.
I felt her hand resting in my farm chest and then it starts move up for my hair .. her breath is heavy and loud.. there no way that I'm the only one who is drowning.
" I don't believe in man made rules." I wishper in her ear .
My nose touched her heavy jewelry. I want to break everything that aparting us.
Say no more.
" But still you were so ashamed to admit that you dreamed about me every night.. haven't you?.. You are stupid. "
She tease, but Her tone tells me she is hurt.
" I .. I.. just don't want to make troubles for you .. Did it hurts a lot?" I said.
Suddenly my senses are back.
I don't know how to look at her eyes but I place my lips on the right side of her soft face...my fingers are getting tight in anger. I can't imagine she ever gets another slap by her father.
" I thought you don't have hormonal imbalance, but I saw your tears were falling and After that you were boxing until you hand was injured? "
She said in a calm tone.. she and me both know.. there was no chance for both of us until we start to decide to walk together in the fire corals. This rules and terms her father's angers and our burdens.
" Can you forgive this emotional ballistic for the last time?"
I say.
My tone is shaking all these pain and longing are is rising on my chest.
She never tells or neither me that how our hearts ached for each other.
But right now ... I want to say everything that I was dying for to tell.
In this colorful light of the lobby.. I saw her tears flow.. her hand was in my forearm , we are very close together.. I wanted to hear her heart beat if they are as loud as mine.
But the high music sound that is coming from the main hall room is too noisy. So I pull her in my arms and hug her tightly. My face also full with tears.
" There was no day that I haven't loved you and cherished you... please believe me and forgive me."
My voice is breaking already..
But she hold me tight.. she buried her face in my neck.. our body held each other like a perfect motion. That's feels so right so perfect.
And my heart is also feels like I have the all heavens on my name. Without even entering them.
Because after all the war of fire and ice
... finally we won each others arms and love.
