was it worth it?

darling?

Alfreds pov:

hey-

Rus dear, are you ok?

you seem.. a little more ... you know unstable?

Ivan : DON'T CALL ME THAT! YOU KNOW DAMN WELL I ORDER YOU TO CALL ME IVAN!

it was pretty obvious that the lover here was drunk but Alfred was persistent he still had a hero act before anything happened...

hey dude- that's totally not cool! see Ivan, I love you but-

* CRASH*

...

I... Ivan?

no ones pov:

the domestic abuse was starting again ... it's always the same...

Ivan gets drunk and gets made easily then he takes all his anger out on Alfred,

because he knew Alfred would never leave him... not in a million decades.

Alfred pov:

please... please make it stop...

I... I don't know what I did... but... I.. I'M sorry!

please stop!

*slap*

Ivan: shut up!

you need to be taught a lesson! I won't let you go that easily!

please. please Ivan..

no one's pov: before he knew it...

Alfred's hands were tied up ivain grabbed empty vodka bottles and threw it at him.

Alfred tried to squirm but... Ivans aim would just increase enough to cut his face...

tears spilled down his face... Alfred was crying he gave up the hero act,

Alfred : please... Ivan...

after a few throws 3 had hit Alfred and he was bloody...

Ivan grinned a sickening grin.

Ivan : heh... down so easy why Don't I just f#ck you to?

(sorry I don't know how to write smut, but I promise when I get comfortable with it I'll write it!)

Alfreds face paled no..no! please don't!

Ivan grabbed a knife and slit Alfreds leg, a drop of blood spilled in the pool from the bottle throwing...

SHUT IT!

oh, how much Alfred had wished he listened to his papa's words...

England / Arthur: remember, Ivan may seem kind but... You never know, he's a Russian Al a Russian..

and remember Russians are violent, and don't go crawling back to soveit either he was just as bad as any abuser could be! look at you!

...

sigh...

you're covered in scars and ... bite marks,

listen to me and France ok?

I know I don't like France (obvious lie) but... he also whishes the best for you...

end of flash back.

damn it.

why didn't he listen Russia's probably just as bad as soviet but... all soviet did was R@p3 him...

sov never hit him once...

Russia never SA'd him but...

he's always being hit...

darn it! why? why can't I find the correct lover?...

author notes:

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Hi humans... I love toxic rusame or toxic sovame but...I haven't found anything to my taste so-

If I can't find it, gotta write it for others like me yk

I'm currently doing summer school so i'll post on weekends but updates will come late until I'm finally done with summer school that is... anyways I hope people enjoyed chapter one-

tysm for reading if you did...