OBLIVION: THE PERFECT BOND | MxM

~Chapter 1~

Kael's pov:

I don't count the years anymore.
I used to.

I told myself it would take longer. That it wasn’t something you could rush. That everyone had their own time.
Mine just… delayed.
Then I got to two years.
Then three.
And before I knew it, I was here.

Twenty-four.
Five years since I should have felt something.
Anything.
But it’s nothing.
Not the connection everyone talks about.
Not that feeling that turns your world upside down.
Not the voice inside you that tells you “this is it.”
Just silence.
And it’s strange how silence can hurt more than anything.

“We’ll get through this, Kael. Don’t worry,”  Kane says, trying to calm me down, but it doesn’t help.

I get out of bed, tired and stiff-faced, and head to the bathroom.
I walk past the clothes and books thrown on the floor, and enter the bathroom.

I turn on the light, even though the sun is already in the sky.
Too bright.

I stop in front of the mirror and look at myself… as if trying to find something missing.
It’s nothing different.
It’s nothing… at all.
“What if we can’t?” murmurs softly.
Kane is silent for a second. Too long for him.
“We can.”
“What if we can’t?” I insist, my voice lower. “What if it’s not for us? What if…it doesn’t exist?”
I feel something inside me tighten, but it doesn’t break. Not yet.
“Kael…”
“What if we die like this? without ever feeling it… without knowing what it’s like?”
Quiet.

This time, Kane doesn’t answer right away.
“That’s not going to happen,” he finally says, but he doesn’t sound sure.
I rest my hands on the sink and close my eyes for a second.
Because that’s exactly the problem.
That I’m not sure anymore either.

I sneak into the shower, wash myself quickly and leave the bathroom to go pick something out of the small closet I have. An attempt at dressing.
But I have to do this sometime.
I've never had the opportunity or time, things have always come up that have kept me away from where I live.

Not that it's bad...but, it's too simple.
Too little for what I expected.
From everything.

Not that it's bad...but, it's too simple.
Too little for what I expected.
From everything.
"Kael." Cassian's voice appears in my mind without warning, as usual.
I raise my head slightly, sighing.
"What?" I answer dryly, while pulling on a T-shirt.
"Come eat with me."
I pause.
"I don't feel like it," I say directly.
“Please.”

I raise an eyebrow, even though he can’t see me.
“Since when have you been asking for me?”
A short sigh from him.
“Ash and Niko are gone. I’m left alone.”  A pause. “With Ethan.”
I close my eyes for a second.
“And?”
“And I can’t have breakfast in peace with a five-year-old who asks a thousand questions a minute.”
A corner of my mouth turns up involuntarily.
“That sounds like a personal matter.”
“Kael.” his voice becomes more strained. “Come.”
I hesitate.
Not because I don’t want to.
But because… I don’t know if I feel like people today.
Or life in general.
“Okay,” he finally murmurs. “I’m coming for Ethan.”
I feel the tension in him ease a little.
“Okay.”

I hang up without saying anything and run a hand through my hair.
Kane doesn't say anything.
But I can feel him paying attention.

I put on sneakers and take my keys from the desk.
I was going to run in my wolf form, but I think I'd better drive.
Even if it takes longer to get there.