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Chapter three

"Hahahah" ash laughs. We are having A dance sleepover tonight and everyone is having a good time. Some of the girls couldnt make it but im actually having fun, werw just talking and watching movies and I somewhat feel like i kind of belong. The next day when I go home I think about Adam, i keep telling myself that time will forget him but time is taking its time letting me forget him. Its hard to forget someone when everything reminds you of them. Today has been two weeks sense we talked, "everything happens for a reason" I tell myself. I literally think I tell myself that 100 times a day. I write in my notebook what runs through my head, what runs through my head when I see my friends in perfect relationships, or when I sit and think how someone got what I wanted again. After awhile my cousin comes over and asks " why are you in such a bad mood lately?","Nothing " I answer. "Jada, what do you want?" she asks. I want someone to say they love me, and I want someone to make me feel actually special for once in my life, I want to mean something, I want to stand out even if only for the moment, I want to be the person who everyone wants to be. Whats what I think to myself." I want everything I don't have" I answer her. " you are who you are for a reason, and this is who you will be for the rest of your life, you can enjoy or hate it but you might as well be as happy as you can..you decide your happiness and your putting it in everyone else hands jada" she pauses, " don't worry about if that guy will ever text you again or not and don't worry about what the dance team says just do you..its your only option.. don't waste one more minute wishing you were something else because ...your not". Thats the moment I understood.