Chapter 1: Denial

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Jovenshire's POV

Smosh Games just finished a new video so I decided to head home because I seemed to be real stressed out about some conflicts going on in my brain. Everyday I go to hang with the Smosh Games crew I always seem to try to talk to Sohinki more and I purposely do it to and if I don't and someone else starts to talk to him I get, well jealous, which is really strange for me. Random thoughts like, "God he's so cute." or "He's so dorky & adorable." will pop up in my head and linger until I can fight them down, but they'll just rise again later forcing me into an endless cycle of fighting my thoughts. It's rather stressful and annoying and I may be an idiot for saying this because this is a common denial saying but I am completely sure that I am not attracted to Matt, there's no way! I'm sure it's just a phase that my brain is putting me through to sorta test me on my sexuality. I'll just go home and fall asleep. Jeez I hope he doesn't show up in my dreams again like last night or the night before.

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