The Calculus of Connection (Acad. Rival Series #1)

Chapter 18

He never let me go of him, he was just holding me in my waist with the time we are waiting for my takoyaki, tapos ngayon nasa loob na ako nang sasakyan niya, I don't even know how the fuck did I end up in his car.

"Hoy! bakit mo sinabing asawa mo ako kay Kuya!" bulyaw ko sa kaniya na dahilan upang takpan niya ang isang tainga niya gamit ang isang kamay, his other hand is in the steering wheel driving.

"It's nice, claiming you as mine." ngiting tugon nito na mas lalong ikinakunot ng noo ko.

"Feeling ka pala e! Kung i-claim mo ako parang nag-c-claim ka lang nang property ah." inis na saad ko pabalik.

"Sorry about that, but I really planned on claiming you legally for a long time now." he said seriously, his eyes fixed on the road.

"Ha?" hindi pumapasok sa utak ko ang mga pinagsasasabi niya.

What does he mean about claiming me legally? ano legal process ganon?

"I planned on explaining and become your suitor again for the second time, if you will give me a chance to prove my self again after my explanation though." tinapunan niya ako nang saglit na tingin bago ibinalik ang tingin muli sa daan.

What the freaking fuck!

"Hindi nakakatuwa ang joke mo." commento ko bago kumaing muli sa takoyaki na binili ko kanina, hindi ko pa pala nauubos to.

My heart was beating so fast, parang dumoble ang bilis kung ikukumpara sa normal na beat nang puso ko.

"And I'm not joking." saad nito at hininto ang kotse sa isang park...the park where he told me that he was just using me way back then.

"Bakit tayo nandito?" takang tanong ko at binalingan siya nang tingin, he meet my gaze and locked his eyes on mine.

What the freaking Nicholas is he doing!

"A-ah, a-ano bang ginagawa natin dito?" I rephrased my question, umiwas rin ako nang tingin dahil nararamdaman ko ang pag-init nang pisngi ko.

Why am I even blushing in our state!

"I'm here to give you the explanation I promised." wika nito at naunang bumaba sa kotse.

Akala ko ay una siyang lumabas nang kotse para umalis at maghanap nang pwesto pero pinagbuksan niya ako nang pintuan.

Wow ah, gentleman nga naman pero sinaktan naman ako.

"I hope you'll listen to my explanation, if I needed to plead just for you to listen to me then I'll do it, just please listen to my explanation." he said pleading while looking straight into my eyes.

"Okay, makikinig ako." tanging tugon ko.

We are seated at the swing in the park side by side, the park is quiet dahil na rin sa walang masyadong tao sa paligid.

I heard him blew a loud breath before talking. "I know that I've hurt you before because of what I've said." panimula niya, I was just listening to his explanation without looking at him.  "It's true that Blair is somehow my ex, that she's been part of my life." of course it's true, I saw it too, that you treasure her.

My heart was clenched in pain, parang pinipiga ang puso ko habang nakikinig sa kaniya kahit gaano katagal na ang dumaan nasasaktan pa rin ako, but at least I'll get the answers to my unanswered questions.

"But one things for sure, I didn't used you, I only say those things for you to hate me that time." napalingon ako sa kaniya dahil sa sinabi, but I remained silent and wait for him to continue. "I say all of those things back then because at that moment I only think about how I can save you from the pain, that it's better to hurt you, hurt us, before it's too late, I don't wanna prolong your suffering if ever that time I won't survive from it." A tear left his eyes.