The Illusion of Normal

Incurable Disease

It spreads like a wildfire, like an incurable disease

It grows inside my own body

Armed with mechanical hearts and useless minds

This venom of a disease flows through my bloodstream

From the snakes that crawl inside my veins

I now crave the dark

I want the darkness with a little more light

An irresistible urge, I allow it to wash over me

Swallow me whole

But even after my soul turns black,

Deep down I know,

I need the light

The pain I have was too much to bare

I've turned numb

I want to feel, I want to live again

I surround myself with a different kind of pain

The dark and the deadly,

I become addicted

Like heroine, this venom, is inside my brain

Dig out my eyes so they can't see the truth

Murmurs and whispers, out in the light

Screams and cries, hidden inside the dark

No, no more

This is not how I want to live

Can you really call this living?

The others around me, succumb to this disease

We are all monsters,

With brains that are ticking time bombs

One by one, they are all gone

Each soul, each person, broken down to none

Maybe this world isn't where I'm meant to be

Eventually, they all start to leave one another

And then there's me

They say, "Sometimes letting go is your only chance of being free."

The clouds of yesterday come and go

The memories turn to tears

As I learn to let go

-Michelle