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Part 14

Kıvılcım shook her head yes. Kıvılcım finally looking at Ömer.

Kıvılcım: Ömer, I don't know how to do this. I'm trying but it's hard... And you doing this tonight is only making it harder for me.

Ömer: I'm sorry but...

Kıvılcım interrupts him

Kıvılcım: You're not sorry.

Ömer: Let me put it like this. I don't regret what I did. I just can't Kıvılcım. I can't even explain to you how I felt the moment that man touched you. My sound mind and the control over my body just dissappeared. I'm sorry that I scared you and made this harder for you.

Kıvılcım: You didn't scare me, Ömer. I'm a woman and I hate to say this but these things has happened to me before and it's going to happen after tonight again. Should I be worried that this will happen every time a man approach me.

Ömer: No, a man can approach you and I know you would be able to hold your own ground, but the touching it just...

Kıvılcım exhales loudly.

Ömer: You're the first woman to come into my life in a very long time, Kıvılcım. I have not allowed myself to to become close with anyone over the last few years. My life is Mavi and protecting her has been my only mission in life. But now that has changed. You came into my life with a literal bang and made me fall for you. Not only that... I'm pretty sure my daughter loves you, making me just fall for you even more. For the first time in forever my natural protective instinct, that I usually only get when Mavi is around me came out the moment I saw a threat around you.

Ömer moved closer to Kıvılcım.

Ömer: Please understand me just a little.

Kıvılcım: I understand you, I really do. You should also understand that this is new to me too. I don't even let a man breath the same air as me. For the past eight year after Aslan...

Kıvılcım went quite.

Ömer: Your husband...

She shook her head indicating yes.

She lift her gaze and Ömer could see her eyes were teary.

Kıvılcım: I've been alone for eight years. I handled things on my own for eight years. I suddenly had to be both parents to a teen, who's best friend was his father. For, years I couldn't open my heart, scared that I'll go through that sudden heartbreak again, scared that my son would think I stopped loving his dad and never forgive me.

Ömer: Have you?

Kıvılcım: Have I what?

Ömer: Stopped loving him?

She went silent, a tear involuntarily running down her cheek.

Kıvılcım: No, I haven't. Have you stopped loving your wife?

He moved closer to her, his body as close to her as it could. He reached towards her and wiped the tear away.

Ömer: No, I haven't stopped loving her.

Kıvılcım: I think you'll never stop loving someone you've lost to death.

Ömer: But that doesn't mean you can't love someone else?

Kıvılcım smiles sadly at Ömer.

Kıvılcım: No, it doesn't but it makes it harder cause your heart is guarded.

Ömer put his hand on hers, comforting her the best way he knows.

Ömer: We've both lost someone we loved truly without warning.