Mortem Memorandum

You came with religion ,but your goal was division. Deception was the vision that caused this division .

You used a small incision
to plant lies for your mission .

You are annoying
to the point
I think you're toying
with my emotions .

I'm drowning in this ocean of lies ,
but you think you're fly ?
I know you're secretly laughing at me ,
because I could never catch
It with my eye .
Well I spy with my little eye. What's big and can't tell the truth ? You !

You're a Bitch !
that I wish
that never exist .
look at your stupid face ,
I wanna spit in your stupid face .

You are your own poison ,
I hope you drink yourself into depression ,I hope when you wash you still stink .
I would wink with my eye
as I watch you die ,
a 1000 times , then a 1000 times .

But who am I kidding ? From the high horse you think I'm sitting .in your story ,I must be the villain ,I know it's bone chilling . Oh , I'm willing
to take it there .

You know what ,here's the truth .I really hate you , I hope your dreams never come through , I hope all your interviews fall through ,
I hope all your opportunities slip through , I hope every man after me uses you ,
I hope they mistreat you ,
I hope they secretly despises you .

I hope they fuck you over , make up with you, then fuck you over and nothing good will ever come to you .

look everybody !!
It's the master manipulator , the emotional instigator
"I'm gonna get it done " what a fucking joke .
I hope when you're stuffing your face , you fucking choke . Yes , I said it
and yes, I ment it .
in this poem, I cement it .

Are you done ? Is this the outcome you wanted ? You're hurting me . So that means your hurting us
and I put us before anything , and I'm crying !

look what you started .
" for better and for worse" and this is just the worse before it gets better .
I promise I'll work harder and be a go getter .
I'm gonna get successful and even be a trend setter ,
from summer , to the cold weather .

When we cuddle in our warm sweaters ,
you'll hear the whispers of how much I love you
And how I can't do without you .
You're the best thing to ever happened to me
and if it was up to me
we would see nothing but success and victory .

You gaslighting piece of shit !
I'm sitting here clenching my fist , your face I wanna hit , your face I wanna split .

I'm acting out of character you must be a witch .
you thought you caught a lick ? but I wised up . It's up with you now . You're gonna have to survive on your own
but I know you don't know how .

I'm really gonna have to take a bow . I leave you this message and I wont be there when you get it .

I made a small slit .
shit!!
It's rushing out !!
all this blood !
It's gushing out !!

My body is calling out
but I'm everywhere now .
I couldn't shout if I wanted to , all I wanted , was to be wanted . Now I just want death .

My energy is slipping , maybe I was tripping .

Therapy I was skipping , my energy is dipping .

I'm crossing over .
who's listening ?
it's so peaceful here ,
maybe there's no reason to fear this outcome .

I guess today I saw my last sun .

I'm going numb , I can't feel my thumb .

what have I done ?

My hands feels like they weigh a ton .
Good bye cruel world ........
it was ............. Fun ..