You never realise what you have till it's gone. Our parents tell us this all the time but do we really listen, no. We're teenagers all we do is carelessly live our lives as though nothing in the world can break us, but little do we know that it's true. We don't see what we could loose until we've lost it, I didn't know how words had the ability to taint my world but they did. As the string of words left Harry's lips I knew I wouldn't last any longer with the little will power I had left gone. I knew his words took everything that I thought was real and played with them as though they were a joke.
The darkness is many ways was comforting. It was quiet. It reminded me of silent night with my body wrapped in my dovet peacfully sleeping the night away, I liked that but it was lonely. I felt like I was having a nightmare within a dream. I saw Harry covered in blood, rabid like an animal but taimed into a perfect monster and then I seen this male like figure, my dad. Big broad shoulder he sent out vibs of pure power. He stood there in front of me with Harry on a leash, like a dog and I was his prey.
"Mariana, Mia, Mia?!" I heard his voice and I seen his face but my head was not in the same world as my body was "Come back to me baby.." he hummed stroking my hair and rocking my broken body in the position where I fell. I blink, slowly gaining consiousness "Mia?" he questions. The feeling was unusual. My body had the ability to control it's self without my mind. She had been locked out and my other half took control "Please tell me you can hear me?"
I hum and relief washes over him "Kitten, you had me so worried." I stood up without his help and I brush him off as if his touch burned.
"Take me home" I whisper with no emotion.
"Kitten, don't you think we have a lot to talk about?" he's confused but I leave him hanging.
"You're done talking. It's my turn. I don't want to know you, this doesn't concern me. My father chose to leave my mother and his children he does not win the award for parent of the year. While he was making monsters, my mother and his family were suffering. That man is nothing to me" I felt my heart clenches at my next words "And neither do you" I watch as he falls from the thrown I built for him "I never asked for any of this. I would appreciate if you took me home and never spoke to me again." I sound flat and fed up.
"You don't mean that." his heartache is quickly covered with anger.
"But I do," I say coldly. "I don't want you in my life. You've ruined me" I scream, shaking. "You ruined me" I sight and return to my cold emotionless expression.
"I did this for you, because you wanted me to tell you. I thought it would make us closer" he equally screams back at me. He's a monster and he shows it. Dark eyes that show no mercy, teeth glistening whenever he opens his mouth. Even his stance screams killer.
"Yeah," I laugh dryly "Because finding out your boyfriend isn't human, but a copy and oh wait for it it was my fathers company who abandoned me as a child who created you only to come find me. Do that not seem a little messed up to you!"
"Look I did this for you. Baby please believe I won't hurt you, I love you" he tries to walk closer to me, but I step back and forbid him without a second though. Part of me was screaming telling me to let her out and into Harry's welcoming arms. She believes Harry is this angel, she loves him but the part of me that's in control right now wants nothing more to do with him apart from see him in a cage, where he belongs.
"Your a monster" I spit at him as though he's dirt on the ground. He flinches at my words and looks at me with the most conserned and heartfelt look.
"I know that that is not you talking right now. Your just saying the worst things you can think of because you feel so weak and betrayed. Kitten I get that, you just gotta let me past that wall, I've done it once i'll do it again. I don't care how long it takes me, I'm not giving up."
"I mean it. Your a monster" I scream, which quickly turns into tears "You monster" my legs didn't hold me much longer, I collapsed on the spot "Your a monster" I repeat but he catches me in his embrace and returns to rocking me. I had no energy spared to fight him off.
"Yes kitten but I'm your monster"
I shake in his arms and gasp "Monsters aren't real, Monsters aren't real" I repeat over and over. My messy body bunched up in Harry's hold.
"Monsters are only real if they're inside your head."
"There not real" I cry.
"I'm here, I'm here" he hums and my body immediatly reacts "I'm not leaving you"
"I don't want you to leave me, but at the same time I don't want you to be real" the tears fall harder and my heart clenches.
"I can work with that kitten" he laughs.
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Hey guys. Sorry I didn't update this last night I have had a lot of trouble with friends so I either haven't been up for writing or haven't had the time. So sorry again. You know I think it's funny that I can be closer with people I've never met than the ones currently in my life right now. I've had it up to my neck with peoples bullshit. Ugh why can't my life be a book. I like books way more!
Anyway I love you all and please tell me what you think!
