FRAGILE TRUTH | Kwon Jiyong

10

"Hi guys!"

Y/n quickly sit up straight and pretending to fix her hair as I lean back slowly, looking at Y/n. A bit annoyed and frustrated by the person's interruption.

"Ah! Daesung!", Y/n greets him. I turn to look at the three tall guys next to us. They took the seats at a table next to us. I rub my temple as I turn my gaze towards Y/n again. 

She looks at me and smile playfully. Tsk. I can't help myself but to be whipped for her.

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I park my car in front of the main entrance of Y/n's apartment. I sigh softly as I was nervous without any reason. I turn to the main entrance as I saw Y/n waving at me. I chuckle and step out of my car.

"Jiyong!", she hugs me after I approach her. I was surprised but hugged her back. 

"You know that you can't see me in the car right?", I asked her and look back at my car to make sure I was right.

She chuckles, "Yup! And I also knows that you always will keep your eyes on me whenever you saw me", she said and flick my nose playfully.

I chuckle again as I lead her to my car. I opened the door for her and closed it after she gets in. 

I told her that I'll pick her up at her place. I also promise her to go get some things that she wanted on our way to my house. It's not far but it is about an hour journey.

We continued our journey after we buy some stuffs for our movie night and dinner later, and we also got her fav coffee at her fav cafe. 

"If you are sleepy, sleep first, sweetheart", I say as I glance at her. She just hummed as I look at her sleepy face. I smile, and remembered something.

"Chagiya, I have something to give you", I stop on the side of the road and I step out of my car. I open the trunk of my car and take out a plushie bear. I look at it first.

This was the bear I gave to Y/n before. She left it in my house the day we fight. I still kept it in my room and some times, I'll hug it whenever I miss her. Mostly all night.

I went inside the car again and give it to her. I can see her eyes went slightly widen as she looks at the plushie bear.

"G-bean!", she shouts as she takes the bear from my hand. 

She hugs it closely to her chest and snuggle it. I chuckle, feeling a bit frustrated by it's name that she gave him.

"Chagiya, why you gave him that name in the first place?"

"Shush, GD!", she said as she placed her index finger on my lips.

"You know how I always gave my fav things a name based on whom gave them to me"

She exclaimed while she leans back on her seat and starts to close her eyes. I smile warmly.

"Sorry. I'm just grateful you still remember him"

Y/n's POV

I snuggle Mr. G-bean. I was shock that he smells like Jiyong. I didn't move as I close my eyes and quickly drift to sleep. Jiyong scent will always give me comfort.

I heard someone call out my name so I open my eyes. I look around and I'm in a parking lot. I turn to look at Jiyong, he's chuckling.

"Does Mr. G-bean smells like me that you are so deeply sleeping?", he asked and caress my cheek. I just keep snuggling with the bear and look at him.

"Are we here?", I ask. He nods and step out from the  car and open the door for me. I'm so used to his treatment even after years not meeting him.

We walk into the elevator and after a minute, we arrived at his penthouse. I was shock to see how it is to be reaching this floor. I follow behind Jiyong closely. As we near the front door, there are two bodyguards that stands there and greets Jiyong. They look at me and I quickly recognize them. "Jaeho! Euitaek!", they smile and bow to me as well. I'm so happy that they still here, working for Jiyong.

Jiyong and I get inside the penthouse. I was amazed by how it was totally a different place from the small apartment that Jiyong had before. I smile warmly as I observe his house. I walk around in the living room while Jiyong went to the kitchen to put down the things we bought for tonight.

My eye spot a collage photo in a gold frame. I went to look closely and realized it was our photos together. It is all from our official dates back then. I look around and realize it was the only gold frame as the others are black and white. White, he used it for his family photos. Black, for his friends and bandmates.

"Gold is expensive they said", he casually says as he sits down on the couch and turn on his tv.

I turn to look at him. Something in me breaks a little, no, a lot, after he said that. I slowly went to sit next to him on the couch, eyes on my bear.

He looks around his house. "I tried to put everything we had before in the house", he points at his glass shelf that is filled with mostly the gifts that I gave him on his birthday and on our anniversary before.

"I think I did a great job, yeah?", he ask softly as he gets closer to me.

I locked eyes with him. His hand cups my cheek. His eyes roaming all over my face slowly like he is trying to memorize it for a long time. 

"I missed you so much. You don't have any idea how broke I was the day you left me there in the dark, cold, space", he whisper quietly.

My eyes starts to tear up, he silently wipes them off as his eyes also gets teary. "I've been searching for you, waiting for you. I saw a glimpse of us almost everywhere I go that I chose to stay in that small apartment", he paused.

"But sadly. The longer I stayed there, the more I realized how much that small space holds a lot of our memories together", he continues. I hold up my hands and wipes off the tears that was silently rolling down his face.

"I was emotionally unstable. I don't know where to go. All I could think is that I'll find my way towards you somehow", our faces are inches apart by now as we still locked eyes.

"Jiyong", I broke down silently.

"Don't cry, sweetheart. It's all my fault- I'm the one to blame-"

"No. No.. I'm sorry I left you there all alone"

"I should be better for you, my love", he continues to comfort me.

"If you didn't leave me back then, maybe I didn't realize this at all", he whisper again and kiss my left cheek.

"Jiyong.."

"Yes sweetheart. I'm here", he pulls me closer and hug me. Making sure I was safe in his arms. I realized the way he holds me now isn't the same as before. If before this he hugs me with love and care, now he does it like he doesn't want to let go. It's like if I would disappear in thin air.

"I love you, Y/n. Please dont leave me again", he whisper in my ears. 

"I love you too, Jiyong", I hugged him back, tightly. It feel so safe whenever I'm in his arms even before. I always thought that being in Jiyong's arms are the safest place for me and that didn't changed until now.