FRAGILE TRUTH | Kwon Jiyong

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Y/n's POV

It has been two weeks since I met Jiyong again. It pains me when I cant stay quiet after meeting him again. We only slept together ones after so long and- Well, maybe that's why it's hard for me to let him go just yet. I sigh heavily and groans out of frustration. 

As I was standing in front of my balcony door, my phone suddenly rings. I walk slowly towards it on the table. I look at the caller id before I pick up the phone.

'Jiyong'

I stared at the id before I answer it. I put the call on speaker as I listen to what he gotta say. I heard some ruffling on the other line, as if the person is moving around.

"Y/n?"

He calls out my name. My heart fluttered at it and I quickly stand up straight.

"Yes? Why did you call me?"

I try to sound nonchalant. I sit on the couch behind me while still holding the phone.

"Oh- um- Well, we have a concert coming up and..."

I stay quiet, patiently waiting for him to continue his talk.

"I think it would be nice to have someone there"

I was taken aback. What does he mean?

"Well, you have your fans there tho?"

I try to sound nonchalant again. Jiyong didnt say anything for a while. I can feel he is a bit hurt by how I sounded like right now. And I dont know why I'm treating him like this.

"Yeah but... I just think that it will be better if you are there too. You know... It makes me feel... safer"

He says. I was too stunned to speak as his words echoed in my head. The way that he says it make it look like he was hoping for me to be there for him.

After some time past, he speaks again.

"It's been some while now. I'm so used to have you waiting for me in the backstage"

His voice suddenly sounded helpless. Like a child longing for his mother's touch.

"Please..."

I can hear sniffles on the other line. My eyes widen as I realized that Jiyong is crying.

"Jiyong-"

"Please y/n", he sniffs again.

"I miss you"

He says. I was taken aback. Why is everything has to be this way? Why he still waits for me after I left him? Does he really still in love with me or is it because he was lonely? Does he actually searching for me that night we bumped into each other or is it just a coincidence? 

"Y/n?"

"Y-yes, Jiyong. I'll try to make time.."

I say unconsciously. I sigh softly as I heard his voice a bit cheer up even he is sniffing.

"Thanks! I-I'll share you the details about the concert later, okay?"

I smile. We ended the call and I quickly received the details. I was surprised that he already prepared it before he made a call to me. I chuckle to myself. Still the same Jiyong I knew.

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I get ready. I put on my knit shirt that exposed my shoulder and paired it with a baggy black pants. I clip my hair in a bun and put my things in my black handbag. I take my phone, sunglass and car keys as I walk towards the front door. 

I put on my white heels as I walk out from my apartment and lock the front door. I get in my car and opened the navigation to the place that BigBang will be doing their concert. I exhale as I start to drive myself there. I cant help but to feel nervous of how Jiyong's members will react when they see me.

I turn on my bluetooth and connects it with my player in my car. I played some songs to calm myself.

As I arrive, I quickly dialed Jiyong's number. It's still an two hours before the concert.

"Y/n?"

"Jiyong"

Both of us stays quiet for a moment before I started talking again.

"Um- I've arrive-"

"Where are you now?"

I was taken aback when he suddenly cuts my words. I tell him where I parked and he came running towards me from the back entrance with some of his closes bodyguards.

"Y/n! I thought you wont come"

I'm a bit embarrassed when he even thought that I wont be coming. Maybe because he still have the feeling that I wont be giving him any chances.

He leads me to their special room backstage. As I walk in, everyone was in pure shock. Not expecting me to come.

"Y/n?!", the members of BigBang says in unison. I stand there like a rock, smiling forcefully since I'm also shock that I made it here.

"Hi everyone", I say with a low voice as I wave awkwardly to them. Jiyong quickly side huh me. I turn to look at him, and his face is so bright. He smiles and introduce me to everyone there. I got deja vu. We've been through this situation before, but the time is different.

I can see new faces in here. And those who already knew me came and greeted me with hugs. I'm happy that they still remembered me. I hug them back and we start to talk a bit to catch up. Jiyong was forced to get ready. 

I talk a bit with the other members too as they finished getting ready sooner than Jiyong. They asked me a lot of questions about my life, and also about how I'm here. Of course I told them everything. 

"Not gonna lie Y/n but Jiyong is a mess when he lost you back then", Taeyang says and the others quickly agreed. I smile sadly to them while fidgeting with my clothes.

I know I messed up most of the fun part. I literally got blind by Jiyong small bad habits that I didn't think about our happy moments.

Jiyong came out from his fitting room and walk straight towards us. He looks so relief and excited.

"Chagiya, did you eat already?", I can tell that it's not only me that was surprised to hear the nickname that came out from his mouth, the other members also were shocked.

"Um, I only had breakfast this morning", I answer him despite the shock. He smiles warmly at me.

"Then, I'll get the staff to order something for you later okay?", he says as he carefully caresses my head gently. I look at him, something in me break that time but I dont know if it's my guard or my heart.

I smile to him and nodded. 

We talk for awhile before the staffs called for them, their concert is about to start and the television that was prepared in the room was turned on. 

4 of them got on the stage and start to perform. I saw how different Jiyong is in this concert. I never missed one of his concert. I will always watch it anywhere I can watch on the media. And today, he's the most bright person ever. 

"Jiyong looks happy to be having you back", one of the staffs said and I smile. 

Jiyong, I dont know what I'm going to do with you now.