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What to do if you think you cut too deep (Advice)

So by the title you can tell what this topic will be, cutting...real shocker. But anyway, tonight I had thought I cut a little too deep. Basically I had gotten a bunch of new blades and they are all way sharper than I thought. I mean, I pressed it into my skin, dragged a little and when I realized how much it was bleeding I kinda freaked out. I pulled the razor away and had noticed that the wound was wide enough that the flesh was separated a good bit, and I could see inside myself. Now don't get me wrong, its not all in the fatty tissue, but its the worst ive done.  So I pulled it open wider (i'm a sicko I know) and in about 5 minutes it was still bleeding. I went to the sink and rinsed it out, feeling it sting more than normal. I got toilet paper and tried  to blot it, but it just kept coming. Its late at night and I had to face this alone. You guys, I understand that you cant control yourselves and that you want to do as much damage possible in the moment, but please try to keep supplies like Gauze, Butterfly stitches, and peroxide near. That way the cut can be steril  so no further infection can occur and it will be a lot easier trip if you do need stitches from the doctor. Please don't stitch yourself up at home, my friend did and there is a terrible scar on her thigh were it got infected and she had to go to a doctor to get it fixed. Just....Take care