panic attacks

chapter .2

Chapter 2

Once I recognized them i started to get one of my anxiety attacks. When I was sitting on the ground feeling like I was dying, Ashton was petting my head shushing me. It was only helping a little but still the fact that they were 5 friggen seconds of summer was not helping very much. I am pretty sure that Luke was on the phone with the police to send an ambulance. I saw the lights to the ambulance coming down the road I heard Ashton say as everything got blurry

"It's ok the ambulance is here just hang on!"

Then..........................................everything...................................went..................................black

I woke up in the hospital to beeping machines................ Beep...............beep..................beep............beep

The machine went. I felt a hand intertwined with mine. I managed to flutter open my eyes. I saw Ashton sitting next to me asleep. I smiled at the thought that Ashton Irwin from 5 seconds of summer was holding my, winter Britton's hand. I squeezed his hand a little and I saw him slowly open his eyes, adjusting them to the light. He looked at me and jumped up and hugged me tightly. I saw the Curtin slide open and Luke, Calum, Michael and my cousin walk in and they joined in on the hug that used to be just Ashton, now I think I am being killed slowly with such lovingness. When they are done giving me the 'group hug 'I say

"Okay, too much love guys!"

Everybody just breaks out laughing and the doctor walked in and says

"Okay, let's see here, oh I see that you are awake, you can go home whenever you like Mr.irwin signed the release papers. He said that he 'promised to take care of you '"

All that I could do was look at Ashton now blushing. He was so adorable, his dimples were showing too. He was the most adorable thing that I have ever seen in my life! He looked up from his lap my cousin 'Gracie' said

"Michael and I are going to the car with Luke and Calum. I will be at home k bye love ya cuz."

And left.

Ashton looked at me and we were still holding hands. After I got my cloths on ashton picked me up 'bridal style' and carried me all the way out to his car. He placed me in the passengers' seat. While we were in the car my phone went off .........

"Winter-you -have-one-new-message-would-you-like-me-to-open-it-for-you-?"

My phone spoke to me. I reply with a gentle but loud and clear 'yes'. My phone responded and opened up my message.

Then Ashton said

"cool phone mine can't do that!"

Messages.

Theresa - hey darling mike and I have to go back to America so you will be staying home by yourself, just remember keep your head high and don't take anything from nobody. I don't want to come home and find you on the floor again. Love you, oh and I made you a house key it will be under the turtle.

I quickly replied 'ok' and moved on with my life. When Ashton pulled up in front of his and the boys house Ashton quickly shut off the car and ran over to my side of the car and helped me out. He carried me into the house. When we got in the house, Ashton set me down on the couch. I said

"Can I have something to drink, my throat is really dry."

Then I heard Luke scream from the kitchen

"I'll get it!"

Luke came running in the living room with a can of coke. Luke tripped over the coffee table and fell onto the couch onto my lap when he did he said

" ......................sup."

We all busted out with laughter and I said

"I'll probably just wait to open this."

And set the can of coke on the coffee table. I walk over to the not yet un-packed boxes and said

"What kind of movies you guys got?"
And opened the partially opened box and found my favorite move 'pursuit of happiness'

Ashton got up and said

"Yeah just let me hook up the DVD player yeah?"

I nodded and I saw Ashton hook up the DVD player and there were cords flying everywhere. When the DVD player was hooked up Ashton put in the movie and Luke ran to the kitchen screaming

"I will get the popcorn yeah."

That just made everybody laughed. Just as the movie was coming on Luke runs back into the living room pouncing onto the couch. About half way through the movie I got a text message. My phone said to me

"Winter-you-have-two-new-messages-would-you-like-me-to-open-them-for-you?"

I replied with a loud nut clear

"Yes"

My phone responded and opened up the messaged it read

Brittney-hey how are you ha-ha oh wait I don't care sorry why don't you just go kill yourself I mean nobody cares about you oh and I heard that you were hanging around with the 5sos boys just remember ashton is mine got it ok see ya in hell.

Cali- hey have you died yet by the way today everybody was saying how much they love how you were gone today it was almost as if you were dead. Same as every day because you have no friends so no one cares. See ya.

I had brought some of my stuff from home to the 5sos house so I knew that I had my blade. I threw my phone down and ran up to Ashton's room and dug through my bag I found my blade and ran into the washroom and locked the door. I slid it across my wrist 4 or 5 times then I heard a loud knock on the door. I heard Ashton screaming for me to open the door. I fell onto the ground crying ashton said

"God I hope you're not by the door because I'm going to kick it down!"

I heard 2 loud thumps after the 2nd one the door bursted open and Ashton ran over to me. He looked at my wrist and quickly wrapped his hand around it and tightened his grip and I know why he did that, he did that so it wouldn't bleed as fast. Ashton started to cry, the thought of him crying made me cry more. He lifted me off the ground and tried to pick me up. I said

"No ash you'll get blood on your shirt!"
He said

"I don't care I know that you might think I am crazy but I have feelings for you and a little blood isn't going to kill me now shut up and get in the bath."

I quickly took off my clothes and sat in the tub revealing all of my scars and ashton took down the shower head and turned it on .the water was cold at first but it got warmer. Ashton rinsed me off and washed my hair for me and when the bath/shower was done Ashton gave me a shirt to wear. I put it on and Ashton grabbed some gauze and wrapped it around my wrist. Then he picked me up and carried me 'bridal style' into his bedroom and set me down on the bed. He covered me up and took off his shirt and pants leaving him standing there in his boxers and got in the bed with me and I felt him wrap his arm around me and right before I fell asleep I heard him whisper

"I love you with my body heart and soul to death goodnight babe sleep well!"

And after that he kissed the top of my head and I fell asleep......... with Ashton ...........Fletcher......... Irwin.

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