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Arc II - Many Firsts [Chapter 2: Dates]

Tamamushi: "Shhhh, you'll feel better in a moment."

My guts crunch, knowing all too well what he's planning on doing to me.

He carries me, takes me to his bed and lays me down on it. To prevent my head from tipping to one side, he sets out pillows. Nausea grips me. Using all my willpower, I try to free myself from this paralysis, but I don't even achieve a lousy twitch in my arm. At some point during the evening, he must have drugged me with something. I can probably consider myself lucky that my vital functions and reflexes are still intact.

I'm doomed, at the mercy of whatever happens to me now. My heart hurts so much. The man who I thought likes me, who I thought valued and respected me, has betrayed me in the worst way. You damn traitor!

My desperation reaches a new level as he now positions himself above me. His eyes and facial features scare the hell out of me. As if I had someone completely different in front of me. Some stranger. As if he had two faces. Have you taken off your mask and are showing your true self?

Now he brushes my hair out of my face and then plays with one of my curls, wrapping it around his index finger.

Tamamushi: "I love your soft, green curls."

Even the way he talks is completely off. He just sounds wrong to my ears. As I can't stand the sight of him, I close my eyes. The function of my eyelids and my lacrimal glands is a saving grace I'm granted.

Tamamushi: "I must have you now. No waiting anymore. You understand that, don't you?"

Be quiet!! I don't want to hear your voice! Shut up.

The tears that keep flowing are the only indication of my state of mind. And yet, I feel so much that my heart could burst.

Fear. Grief. Despair. Disappointment. Anger. Hatred.

I want to scream.

Then I feel Tamamushi start to unbutton my shirt. No! Stop!

When he has undone the last button, I open my eyes again, pouring all my sadness into them. I want to confront him with my despair, in the naive hope that I can somehow reach him, somehow stop him from going further. Please! Don't do this to me!

His eyes meet mine directly. To my horror, it's like looking into a black abyss, making me realize that I have no chance and then leaving me hopeless. Resigned, I close my eyes again.

He now slides the fabric of my opened button-down aside.

Tamamushi: "You are so beautiful."

The moment he runs his hands over my naked torso, my chest constricts more painfully than ever before, and I wish my senses had been numbed by the substance as well. Unfortunately, I can feel his every unwanted, vile touch. Including the way, he brushes over my nipples...Disgust and fear take over the majority of my emotional world. Stop touching me!

Another attempt to activate my primary. In vain. The substance completely blocks my quirk. There is no way out for me.

After what feels like an eternity of torment, during which his wretched sounds of excitement have poisoned my ears, he finally stops his inspection of my upper body. The mattress moves beneath me, and I hear rustling, the sound of a zipper, more rustling. Reflexively, my eyes lids twitch with fear. I don't want to think about the fact that he's just undressed, it's too horrible, too creepy, but it's apparent.

Tamamushi: "Well, look at that...mhm...Look what you're doing to me."

I do my best to ignore his comments.