A Different Kind of Love

The Missed Childhood

The time of my childhood as ended.....

When I was 10 I am forced to live with my grandparents who is living up town, since they are already old and needed somebody to help them out.,

That is the end of my childhood., too early but I need to leaved it behind in order be more reliable, that is the reason I'm here they needed my help.

My grandparent's house is very remote and we have no neighbor, I don't have anybody to play with except when I'm in the school, but I cannot play in school, since I still have a long way to walked and I need to be home before it gets dark.

I missed my childhood but my new place has no room for a child.

I only visit downtown for some time, mostly when there is occasion like Christmas and new year., and that is the time when we see each other again.,

Anyway nothing's changed in our friendship we still as good as ever, we even swim in the river together, she can now swim as good as me., I'm her teacher remember ^_^

The Time passed and I graduated elementary, I take a scholarship in a catholic school which is very far from our province.

Our school is exclusive for boys, we stay there for one year and have a 2 week vacation every year.

And the most awaiting first vacation has come, I can't explain the feeling, but living inside one compound for one year makes me missed everything outside, especially my families and friends.

Since this is  her story I will concentrate on her.,

"Toy may bisita ka" my mother told me.

I never expected that it is her.,

I almost never recognized her, except she is chubby as ever.,

One year had makes a big changes in us.

"Kumusta kana dalaga kana ah :)"

"Kaw din naman binata na"

"Nabasa ko pala yung sulat mo kaso nito lang nong pabakasyon na kami kaya hindi ako nakapagreply, salamat kasi naalala mo akong sulatan" -me

"Binabasa ng mga madre ang lahat ng sulat bago ibigay sa amin, paggaling sa mga friend na girl di nila ibinibigay para daw makapagconcentrate kami sa pagaaral"- I continued

"Ha.. ok lang ang mahalaga andito ka na"

She is somewhat diffrent now.. wierd., I feel like she is hiding something from me.

The way she looked at me is different from before,

When I hold her hand her face turned red,.... that is not the first time I hold her hand??.

When I carry her in my back, she never laugh out loud like she did before, she stays quite and put her head on my back.

Anyway we are still as closed as ever, there is just something different in her reactions

One day we went swing in the river just like we did before

Our shirts are wet when we go home,

Her aunt is not happy to see us like that, she called me and talked to me in private.

"Pasensya kana pero hindi nyo na pwedeng gawin yung ginagawa nyo noon, dahil mga dalaga at binata na kayo., sana maintindihan mo ako"

"Opo naiintindihan ko po pasensya na po"- my sad reply

.........I was very sad that day.. 

When I leaved my childhood behind,. I always thought that I can just continue it when I have time..  I never notices that time is not that kind of thing.,

I always thought that I can just do things that I missed to do

I missed a lot of things with the kind of road I have.

I always thought that there is a time for everything

I thought that I can be a child when I wanted.

But that is just what I always thought.,, and I was wrong.

When you left by time,.. you can never catch up with it,.. and you will be left behind.

.........

Does she feels the same way?

A/N: medyo sente po ng kunti T__T

its just a short update just to feel whats inside of me and inside of her, its a little bit different but I am sure both are Love ^__^  .

See you later Friends.....