• My Mercury •

• When Things Change •

December , 2023

It's the middle of December and things have changed drastically since July. Mario left us, he didn't even tell us goodbye. He just walked out the door and never turned back. I haven't heard from him since, either. The only time he talked to me and my sister was when he would add us to group chats so that people could troll and make fun of us for whatever reason.

It hurts how you can feel so close to someone and loved by them when there's actually nothing there.

Two days after our birthday, my twin sister moved out. She moved in with my aunt Sunny but things didn't go well there. Sunny is neglectful towards children, including her own. She would leave my sister at places for days and not come back for her.

The way she runs her house is also different than our own. She doesn't make her kids clean up much, hell she doesn't even clean up. At one point, she adopted us and we tried to keep her house clean. Much to our dismay, the mess was inevitable.

The only time Sunny cleaned it herself was three days before the cops came to take us back home. The adoption was illegal and it was possible that she would get in trouble. Her only reason for cleaning was the possibility of losing her children, in which was her greatest fear at the time.

She drinks and smokes all day 24/7, to the point where some say it's a wonder she's not in a hospital bed clinging for her life. That's pretty harsh in my opinion, but I do think she should slow down with all of those toxins. I love mi tía but I do believe that it may become too late if she doesn't sit down now.

Venus now lives with my aunt Judee. I guess things are going good because she hasn't called me saying anything bad has happened or anything. How did she get from one aunt to another?

Well, one day Sunny left her at one of my aunt's houses. Her name is Lex. Sunny was supposed to go get Venus two days later, when Lex finished her hair. A week passed and Sunny hadn't came back yet so, Judee came to get Venus and they never turned back.

I don't blame her for finally escaping but any time we had to get away, I made sure we stayed together. It kind of hurts to see she didn't care to do the same and left me. We could both be away and doing good but no ... she left me and hasn't come back.

I try not to be upset with her and still talk to her from time to time but it's hard. My mom doesn't even want me speaking to her. The fact that I have to "sneak" and talk to my sister is so heartbreaking, but it is what it is, I guess.

Bill has come back home, too. He's been rather.. calm lately? It's weird to me. I'm not used to him being this way, and I know it won't last. We have seem a bit of problems since he came home, though.

When he was in jail, I came out to them. I was afraid to tell him because a few years ago, his daughter Zafira was trying to come out to him and my mother. Of course, him being ashamed of his own sexuality he tries to act homophobic. He shamed the hell out of his daughter for liking girls.

"If I ever catch one of my girls liking on another girl, she will never be allowed in my house again," he said in front of us and my mother. He then beat her because she wouldn't stop liking girls.

Lucky for me he was in jail and couldn't put his hands on me. He took the news better than I expected, and was even supportive. Though, now he's not really living up to the support.

He calls Ria my bitch and tries to find reasons for us to break up. My mom constantly tells him it's not okay to talk to someone else's child the way he does, but he doesn't listen. I don't see why he thinks it's okay. Because if Sage's or someone else's parents tried to talk to me like that he would be upset. What makes it worse is if it were his real children in the situation, he would go to jail for hurting someone if they talked to them that way.

The thing is, he tells me nothing comes between he and my mother. Not even our family or his. That nothing should come between the person I love and I. But when I try to defend Ria, he get upset with me.

Ria has been the only one here for me. Ever. No one else has ever cared for me the way has. Ever since the day way we met all she's made sure I felt was love and care. She's so tender.

How could you be mad at her for treating me more than right, when you were mad about other people fucking me over?