Standing all alone beneath the starry night sky. Tears running down her cheeks. Olivia dropped on her knees on the ground. Trying not to scream. Complaining about everything that happened. Trying to muffle the loud sobs that threatened to come out her throat. Wishing the ground to swallow her wholly and completely. Remembering the harsh and cruel things that happened. Remembering the whole time she carried her heavy heart and no one even noticed. Remembering the whole time she tried not to break down on the spot because of the overwhelming heaviness she was feeling. Her body was trembling from the anger, the emotions and the agony that was going through her veins at that very moment. Her hands were shaking, eyes were swollen from all the crying. She almost stopped crying. Almost. The word scared her now. In fact scarred her. The wounds that the only word caused will never fed. They will always be raw and never stop bleeding. She was almost certain that her best was in love with her. She almost told him about her feelings that bloomed in her heart during those years they spent with each other as best friends. She almost asked him to go out with her. But she couldn't after everything she just couldn't do it. 'He would never love you.' The small voice in her head reminded her and a new rush of tears escaped her waterlines and a gut wrenching sob came out of her mouth. "Why?" She almost couldn't recognize her own voice. It was raw with all the crying. "Why it had to be me? Why did I have to fall in love with him?" She was gasping for air at some point. She couldn't take it anymore. Her heart had been broken into million of pieces.
After sometime, after some solid minutes she calmed herself down. The she looked up at the sky, there were still silent tears running down her face. The sky was looking like a giant blanket of twinkling stars. The cold wind blew her hair off of her face, exposing her red nose, rosy cheeks and tear filled eyes. The night wind always calmed her soul down. Her aching soul. But maybe not today. The moon illuminating her brown eyes. The lake water was glowing under the moon. The atmosphere was peaceful. But not enough to quite her mind. It was calming. But her heart still screamed for some signs of hope. Maybe there was still something.
She sat cross legged on the ground and looked up at the sky. Smiling. She was smiling but it had lost the light behind it. The hope, the liveliness these things were long gone. But she was smiling. She wasn't crying anymore. This place, it always had been her home. She was feeling numb and cold now. There was a hollow in the place of her heart now. But that was just her fate. Her cruel fate. And she accepted the fact that her life will always betray her like that. That she will never be good enough.
12 Years Ago
Olivia was playing with the paper swans she made as her parents chit chatted with their friends. She was so enamoured with her little swan play that she hadn't even acknowledged the boy with certain blue eyes as he sat by the empty seat beside her. "Hi!" She almost flinched at the enthusiastic voice. She turned her head toward the boy who seemed to wear a toothy smile. It had been a real smile she could tell. The boy shoved his hand forward for her to shake. "I am Archie." "Hi Archie." She felt awkward at first. But the boy had looked kind so she shook his hand lightly. "I am Olivia. It's nice to meet you Archie." She gave him her own smile and went back to playing with her paper swans. "Can I play with you?" Archie asked olivia with a smile after some moments. "Why? You can play with the boys there. They are playing football. Don't you like football?" She was looking at him with a frown on her face. He was pouting at her now. "I like it but I want to play this with you. It seems interesting." After some solid minutes of staring at him Olivia had given him one of the paper swans. "Would you like to be friends?" Archie said out of nowhere. Swinging his legs excitedly under the picnic table. "Why do you want to be my friend?" Olivia had given up on playing with her swan and turned her body towards him. "I don't know. You seem nice. And you make nice paper swans. If you be my friend I will always be there by your side no matter what. I will also protect you from the bad guys. I can fight very well. I have got muscles see..." he was showing off his flat arms and patting them to prove his point. She was laughing at his silliness. "Okay I will be your friend. And I will be there for you too. Forever." She held up her pinky for him to wrap his own pinky around hers. "Pinky promise?" "Pinky promise." And they had played the whole time they were together. And that's how their friendship had started.
4 Years Ago
"Hey there you sulken rat." Olivia snickered from behind as Archie was trying really hard to understand whatever he was reading.
"What the hell!" Archie left a squeal at the sudden presence behind him. "When did you come in?" "Just when you were wishing the floor would open up and swallow you wholly." She was getting comfortable on his bed at the time. His home had become her favourite place to be at. "Don't you have homeworks to complete at this moment? I swear my brain's gonna deflate trying to understand this theory. It's sabotaging my neurons completely." Archie groaned from his study table. He was getting impatient at this moment. "Just try to memorize the precise details and it will do." "That's what you did?" He turned his study chair towards his bed. Olivia was reading on of his comics lying on her stomach on his bed. "Uh-huh." She answered his question without taking her eyes off of the comic. Archie huffed at that and returned to his homework. "Finally." After some time he got up from his chair and sat on the edge of his bed. Olivia was looking at him now. Resting her head on her hand as she prompted herself on her elbow. "Now tell me about your day." Archie nudged her leg with his. "Oh I almost forgot. So today I figured out something." She sat on the bed abruptly and looked at him with big brown eyes. Archie furrowed his brows at her. "Figured out what?" He looked too good like that. She shook those thoughts out of her mind. "I figured out that we all are connected by some invisible strings. Like we all are connected through them. They all glow differently according to our relation with different persons." She rambled on about her theories confusing him further more. "Okay...so what does our string says about our relationship? How does it glow?" He rose his brows at her. She could be so confusing sometimes. But he still found her adorable and interesting just like that one time when he had found her playing with her paper swans making her own different world with them. Colour blossomed in her cheeks. She could feel all the blood rushing to her face. Whenever she thought about the strings about their friendship it gave her those little butterflies.
"Umm....it glows very strongly you know, like we are connected to each other with a very strong string. It's different from the other strings. These strings are with us all the time but we can't see them. But we can feel the pull of theirs whenever they connect us to the people around us."
She knew she was rambling right now. "It's fascinating." He smiled at the glow on her face. Whatever made her happy made him happy too. That's why they were best friends.
