~ Alex ~

Hello Human World People •^•

*appears out of shadows* Hello my lovelies, nice to see you again ^-^

You know what I really don't feel like writing anything right now but I wanted to say hello so *waves* hi people

Okay so grammar isn't really going to be a thing in this because I don't feel like it and I'm on my phone so yeah

Oh shit I just sneezed I really hope nobody heard that....

I'm not exactly supposed to be awake at the moment because it's like really late (or technically really early but hey)

Do people sneeze in their sleep? Can I pull that off?

Probably not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Ugh my phone case broke today and I had to take it off and I'm paranoid I'm going to break my phone somehow but I'm laying in bed rn and my floor is carpet so I shouldn't be able to do that but knowing me I'll find a way to crack the screen or something

I didn't realize Everybody Talks was a Neon Trees song okay that was a big realization I just made

I also need to stop reading horror stories late at night, i am now terrified of the dark and i literally almost screamed just now when Pandora cut to static for a minute I thought I was going to die and there's a freaky shadow over there and it's moving ummm

Okay so It was nice knowing you guys

Anybody else in love with the song Miss Jackson by P!@TD?

It just came on Pandora and I feel like Brandon Urie is now protecting me from the demons under my bed

And hopefully from the serial killer in the corner staring at me as well

Um

Okay I am officially having a heart attack right now over random shadows I need to stop with the fudging horror books or I am going to start sleeping with the lights on

Let's talk about something else maybe the serial killer will leave if I stay awake long enough

My friend is currently lecturing me on why flipping tables is a bad idea

Maybe I'll go flip a chair or something just to humor her (~0.0)~

Nope, I'm way too comfortable, and also I think there might be something hiding under my bed waiting to eat me so yeah no thanks I'll just stay here in my nice warm bed

Here is a quick list I made today when I was really bored titled '10 words and phrases I say way too often and it's probably really annoying';

1) Okay so, Okay so yeah
2) How dare you
3) Fantastic/Fabulous
4) Actually, Actually though
5) Sorry
6) Like
7) Fuck
8) Really
9) Could you not
10) So that's a thing

My throat fucking hurts right now

I hate getting sick in the summer

But hey I get to stay inside and watch Netflix all day while simultaneously spending all of my time on Tumblr (not that I don't do that when I'm healthy but this way I have permission) so that's a thing too

Actually I'm really fucking hungry right now I didn't eat anything today

I don't eat during the day very often and I don't usually get very hungry during the daylight hours but as soon as I try to go to sleep my stomach gets all up in my face like 'hey Alex you should feed me now' like no I'm trying to sleep leave me the fuck alone okay

And my Guinea pig is being really loud so that's also a thing. I almost screamed when he flipped his cute lil house over and it hit the edge of the cage I thought it was someone coming to murder me. Like really, could you not start running around your cage right now please?

I have a love-hate relationship with the night time. Like, people leave me alone for a few hours and I can read and write and listen to music in peace all while laying in bed and there are pretty stars and silence which is great but there's also fucking serial killers and demons and shit and I hate being alone with my thoughts all night because I will draw blood from my wrist if I'm alone for that long it's a tough thing do you understand me here

This shadow is still fucking staring at me guys help

Oh and this is just fantastic, one of my headphones just stopped working. Like the little earphone/earbud things? one of them just stopped working (only one of the little ear pieces broke of course the other one is just fine but it'll stop working in a few days I know it will) and now I have to go buy new ones again, dammit

(Update; The other one broke today which is the day after I put this up and so now they're completely broke and that is just fantastic)

I'm pretty sure everything I say from this point on isn't going to make any sense (as if it did before lol) because I just got really tired all of the sudden. Maybe I should go to sleep...

Nah...

Natalie...

Narwhals...

What?

You know, when I start feeling both deathly exhausted and inexplicably restless/impatient/annoyed/angry enough to murder somebody (possibly myself) at the same time, it's probably time for Alex to go to sleep

That fucking serial killer in the corner, if he comes after me I'm going to kick his ass I am way to tired to deal with his shit at this point

But I am also going to put my feet up on the bed under the covers to protect them from the monsters under my bed, ya kno, just in case. I actually quite like my toes, I'd like to keep them connected to my feet, if you don't mind. I actually painted my toenails the other day and they're really cute. It's black polish with a white flower on the big toe and silver polka dots on all of em' it's actually really adorable I think.

Okay so yeah it's definitely time for bed as I have now resorted to rambling about my toes

Hang with me for a sec, I just have a few reminders for you. Please keep yourselves safe tonight, my lovelies. You are so special. Please keep yourself alive. Please don't hurt yourself tonight. I know you can do it.

Go drink some water if you haven't today, and if you haven't eaten you should so that too. If you need to take your pills today, go do that, and if you need a refill on your meds call your doctor and do that. If it's late you should go to sleep. If you need a hug from somebody go get one. Take care of yourself. You deserve it.

Keep fighting, Lovely!

~Alex Paris

*disappears into shadows*