LETHAL ( Spencer reid x Reader)

S2 Chapter Four: Trap

"I killed people. I am not a good person. I am not the person you settle down with. I am the one you meet before your wife, " I say as I talk over him.

"I love you Y/n" he says once more as I talk over him.

"No, you can't. I will destroy you," I say with tears in my eyes.

" You can't destroy what's already broken, If you say yes and say you love me back you will heal what you did not break inside of me" He says placing his hand on my cheek once more.

" So say yes and say you love me too..and let's be happy together Y/n.." he says with a saddened voice.

I was silent. I did not know what to say to him as he looked in my eyes with love and a little bit of sadness.

" You moved on from me like you said you did, as did I with Richard," I say with guilt.

I did hate the fact that he loved another besides me. I also knew if we ended up together, it would be a disaster. We are too much alike. We will be at each other's throats.

"If Richard never had a plan to kill you, and you had a choice to marry him, would you?" He says to me.

"Would you marry, maeve?" I then retorted.

"What?.." he mutters.

"I know about her, tell me if she was alive and you had a chance with her, would you have married her?" I asked him.

He stands there for a moment with a look on his face. I couldn't tell which look it was.

" No.. I loved her yes..but not in the way I love you, " He admits to me.

I felt frozen as he continued to talk.

"I hate that I love you so much it makes my chest physically hurt."

" Why did you not check in on me..why not visit me when I was institutionalized, I needed you..And you weren't there"

"Y/n I was held hostage and drugged to the point I was addicted to drugs," he admits to me.

"You were an addict?" I questioned him sadly.

"I got better with time, and do you want to know what got me through my addiction?" He asks me.

"You..I made sure you were okay in New York, I kept track of your court dates, I kept track of your health in the institutional, As soon as I found out they were abusing patients I sent the FBI to shut it down" He says loudly.

" You shut down the institution?.." I ask him.

His head was low as he fiddled with my ring on my finger.

"There is not a place on this universe I will not go for you..Because I love you so much to the point you are the reason I am alive and breathing,"

I then felt tears in my eyes.. he went to the ends to help me and my situation he did not give up on me.

" If I have to say I love you in 10 different languages, I will," he says adamantly.

The truth was.. I love him too, but I can't we would be miserable together were too much alike we will hate each other.

Then I felt a flush of heat in my cheeks as he placed his hands on my cheeks.

"Whatever our souls our made of yours and mine are the same," he says, looking deep in my eyes.

I then walked away as he did not have a hold on me anymore. I placed my hand on my forehead as I figured out what I got myself into.

I look back at him as he breathes heavily, looking at me.