LETHAL ( Spencer reid x Reader)

S2 Chapter Four: Trap

I walked close to Spencer as I took his hand with the pretend ring.

"You're going to get caught, and you know it. Do not say you won't," I say to him.

He gives me a confusing look as he looks at me, holding his hand with the ring.

"Sorry.." I say, realizing I am holding his hand as he hates hand holding. I let it go.

He then grabs it back as he squeezes it tight.

" It's fine, I don't mind you holding my hand," he says gently, almost muttering the words back to me.

"No, it's not. I crossed a boundary. If it was 12 years ago, you would have tore me a new one," I say.

He sighs as he I look down at his hand. He still has it intertwined with mine as he holds it. His finger was grazing along my hand along my veins.

"Were not in the past anymore Y/n.. and were friends. I don't mind you holding my hand," he admits to me.

"Spencer.." I said, but I was interrupted as he placed his hand along my cheek as he looked deeply in my eyes.

We stayed like this for a moment, looking in each other's eyes. He then started moving his thumb back and forth on my cheek as he sighed a breath of relief.

"Cat will see through our plan she will see a crack, and she will break our plan," I say with an annoyed voice as I take the ring off his finger.

He looks at me while I hold his pretend ring.

He then notices I am wearing the ring he kept as he gave it back to me before I was institutionalized in the psych ward twelve years ago.

He then takes my hand as he looks at my ring.

" I meant every word." He then said to me.

I then looked at him, confused, not knowing what he was talking about.

"What are you talking about, Spencer?" I ask him once more.

He then let out a nervous breath as he let his hand down from my cheek and held my other hand, looking in my eyes once more.

I then realized what he was referring to.

"That was 12 years ago spence..I almost died. You probably said it out of Pity, and the fear of me almost dying must have given you false feelings for me." I say to him in doubt of his feelings for me.

"I meant every single word," he then says to me with a serious expression on his face.

I do not believe him. That was twelve years ago. There's no way he loves me. Even back then, he confuses his hatred for love for me.

"Y/n..don't say it's not true because it's true..I am utterly and desperately in love with you." He says to me.

"No, you're not.." I say once more, shaking my head in disapproval.

"It's no use Y/n, we gotta talk about it, I have loved you ever since I knew you Y/n" he confessed to me.

I could feel my heart ache more my face turning white why me?, why would he want to be in love with me?, there's 7 billion people on planet earth why me?.

"No.." I stated.

" I tried finding someone else. Y/n, I can't love anyone the way I love you.." he says in a more desperate tone.

"Why me?..why did you choose me to love? I am hateful. I am homely, I am Sarcastic at the worst times -"

"I love you Y/n" he says as I talk over him.