I still wish i looked the same i did last year
I was skinnier
I was starving
Now I'm eating
Ive gained the weight i NEED
Yet the overwhelming thoughts
I need to stop.
Im fat.
I know
And my ex Who moved on with a pretty skinny redhead...
I Just want to be pretty too.
I have to go back
To go back to counting calories, and drinking nothing but water, and chewing polar ice gum that flavor seems to last hours.
Cry on the floor hoping ill drop 10,15,20 pounds.
Being hungry giving me a since of euphoria. Like drugs.
Working out constantly
Getting the compliments im losing weights, making me proud
I was never fat, but i was never skinny. I was me. Yet i hated and still hate it
