On The Edge Of Darkness

On the edge of darkness-18

"welcome to Thailand, max" Arthit hugs him and max returns the hug

Kongpob keeps staring to their conversations, while Arthit leans to Kongpob ear "jealous much,"

That brings him back to original world, he see max holding Marise in his arms she is so giggling happily and hugging max neck, he turns to Arthit, yesterday Arthit is on mute war with his father just to see how long Kongpob can fight him off and Kongpob is not easy he put up a big fight he seriously want Arthit to be happy then itself Arthit decided even more determined to have Kongpob, although he is still angry for yesterday's Kongpob behaviour at restaurant he forgives Kongpob because he loves him so much and took it as positive fight which helps them grow their relationship strong

Kongpob keeps staring to Arthit, and Arthit excuses with max and Marise to have a talk with Kongpob, he holds an arm around waist asking him walk with him and Kongpob surprisingly did not push the arm away seeing max and Marise being close, he is feeling like they are too! And what he is doing, being a proud boyfriend, show off to Marise! is that to tease Marise, Marise gives a teasing smile kissing max cheek, and Kongpob gritted his teeth, last night when he said congratulations, Marise did not speak a word and let Kongpob walk off now she is showing off with max, right! He grinned walking away with Arthit,

Moving to the corner wall he looks to Arthit who is looking down to him "..drink up, milk will turn cold,"

He nod having sips and avoiding Arthit eyes which are looking at him, he don't want to push away Arthit, yesterday he felt lot of pain, it's a terrible experience, too horrible to push Arthit away, he don't want to do it again, now that he Is having a chance he is not going to repeat the same mistake, it was terrible experience for him

Done with milk Arthit cleans Kongpob lips with his cuff sleeve and receives the cup he throws away disposable cup into trash can from where he is standing and Kongpob smiled, cheering "...yes."

When Arthit looks back to him with a smile he stops his smile, he feels Arthit thumb caressing Kongpob jaw "...don't stop"

He looks to his free side he feels Arthit holding his forearms and trying to search for Kongpob eyes "yesterday, I was angry, so I did not speak to you Kongpob,"

Kongpob nod "it was my fault, porr even hit you I am sorry, p'Arthit" he did not dare to look into Arthit eyes but he can feel Arthit squeezing his forearms and trying to look into his eyes but he is on mission of avoiding

"porr did forgiven me,"

Kongpob nod still looking away "...I am glad, then,"

"I am sorry for forcing..."

Kongpob shook his head still looking somewhere else "no..no, its not your fault," Kongpob denied, he felt Arthit leaning closer and Arthit raged breath is fanning his cheeks which are turning red

"did I make it worst on our first date?"

Kongpob shook his head "it was good, It's my fault that I spoiled everything,"

At a point, Kongpob felt scared of happiness he is receiving when is on date with Arthit which is what he could not believe! Unexpected his insecurities poured in and he could not withstand he was afraid if this continues he could not back off, what if past haunts him again? He suddenly flipped their date page and everything turned worst and the pain he felt was horrible he thought he is going to die in any moment he put up to fight with himself which he never do, now after being in Arthit arms again he cannot think of moving away anymore, he cannot do this to himself, he understands he loves Arthit more he cannot withstand to see Arthit with anyone

"...I will make it for our next date,"

Kongpob felt apologetic for making Arthit feeling guilty, he is the one who spoiled their date, yesterday when he sees the steak his emotions took a turmoil, he cannot eat the steak, he felt weak all of a sudden, he cannot even eat steak with Arthit how can he imagine a life with Arthit, Arthit can have someone in his life who can share a steak and blend coffee and can clean dust! And do everything for Arthit which he cannot he felt so weak so worst being a man he feels worst like he cannot do anything atleast a girl does, he knew masculinity had nothing to with this, but his situation is telling him how weak and worthless he is, he easily get tired and sick, having dust allergy, cannot lift weight, he is far worst than his grandmother who is still working at this age..