i've been having some sensory issues lately?? i don't like the way my glasses feel on my face and i've grown to despise physical touch. also my grandparents' shower is a NIGHTMARE
i've been trying to explain my recent discomfort over touch and a lot of people just... don't care.
especially the people at the church i go to.
person a and person b have NO SENSE of personal space. person a also attempts to pat me on the back during the sermon but it's really rough and just hurts, they're basically smacking me. and since we're "family" (my mom and i have only known them for a few months) they force and pressure me to hug them which is SUPER uncomfortable. i always try to avoid it and they acknowledge it but they just don't care. they know i dislike it. i know they do because person c mentioned it (albeit in an offending way) but they just DON'T CARE
i think person a and b made me dislike touch anymore but person c definitely does not help. person c is the reason i'm even writing about this.
i've mentioned it to person c so many times but they just don't care!! they always pull me by the COLLAR out of my comfort zone when im just NOT READY. i don't know how hard it is to take the hint. they have ZERO sense of introversion. they're half the reason i want to cry every time i go out in public. they want me to stop being so isolated and shut in but they make it way worse.
people say "respect your elders" and expect you to do that no matter what. but my elders don't respect me, so why should i respect them? respect is earned, not given.
at least i have an older cousin that actually cares. she asks for a hug when we leave and doesn't pressure me which is why i'm comfortable with her. i don't deserve her 😭
