I walked home after what happened. I was still surprised and was flustered.
I looked at our house, I stared at the front door deciding if I should go in or not. I took a step in but I didn't hear any fighting noises... I looked around and no one was home... I went straight to my bed and locked the door.
I was happy then since no one was there to nag me or hurt my feelings or hurt me physically.
I looked at my phone and just scrolled, but then I saw a post from exeo. He was leaving?... I didn't know that. Why didn't he tell me?..
I texted him asking if he's really leaving. I got a response saying
"Yes sorry I didn't tell you"
After that I shutdown my phone. I screamed internally as tears fell down my face. I thought we'd be together forever, I though he was the one. But I guess I'll be alone again.
I might sound like I'm overreacting but constantly having someone get in my life then decides to leave, is one of the most painful thing you could a give person. I cried myself to sleep, I didn't even want to touch my phone.
It kept ringing, so I muted it All.
I can't anymore, why does it always happen to me? My trust was broken again, and by someone I thought was trying to fix that trust.
(Warning⚠️ mention of self harm)
I got my bl*de and started to lose control of myself, I always end up like this when I have problems that I don't feel the pain anymore. It's more like a distraction.
I looked in the mirror with blood all over my wrist.
*I look pathetic haha, but what can I say. My life's trash that's why I'm doing it*
Tears started flooding my face again. Everything was going all at once, I thought everything will be fine. I thought I'll be okay now. I thought I left that life from the past. I thought I was better now.
But guess what, here I am again.
I sat down and stared at the rope I had.
*should I? *
That word kept repeating on my head as I set up my sh*t. I'm only asking it cause I know Tha answer.
I sat down after I settled it up. I opened my diary and wrote something. As I was writing tears fell down my face, it was hard looking at the paper while my eyes run.
And finally I finished it.
I got in the chair and put my head in.
I felt relieved, finally! The time has come! I'm finally obtaining my dream!
I kicked the chair and everything ended there and then.
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