After all the crying Fatima was exhausted an had a headache , kiki voice was all in her head about the baby she lost an if she's being honest kiki was right ....fatima was so focus on the the baby she lost that she wasn't even acknowledging the one in her stomach ,she lead back in her office chair an began to rub her little baby bump talking to her baby
Fatima : Mommy is so sorry i know i haven't been the best mom but i promise ill do better am gonna love you with everything inside of me .....i know i made you feel like you didn't matter but i feel like a failure "sniffles " its my fault you lost your brother/ sister i couldn't even protect him/her in my stomach but i shouldn't have made you feel like you didn't matter i love you so much and i haven't even meet you yet if you give mommy another chance i promise ill do better starting by taking a few days off
** As if the baby could respond to fatima she nod her head thinking she feel a kick or maybe it was just her imagination either way she felt like her baby responded to everything she just said ......she wipe her tears an gather her things when her friends came walking in
Kiki : Hey
Fatima : Hey kiki
Quiana : You got a meeting? She ask looking at fatima gather a few things off her desk
Fatima : Umm no actually am taking a few days off to relax an focus on my baby ......you guys were right i was so focused on the baby that i lost forgetting about the one still inside me , it really hurts that i lost one of my baby i feel like it was my fault an i took it pretty hard " sniffles" nevertheless the one inside my stomach didn't deserve me not eating or resting so i promise ill do better to make sure my baby is healthy an stress free
Kiki : Its okay tima i know its hard am not saying don't griev the loss of your baby am just asking you to take care of your self an the one your carrying....but am sorry for snapping at your earlier
Fatima : Its okay kiki am also sorry for yelling at you guys i know y'all was looking out for me
Kiki : Did you mean what you said Earlier?
Fatima : Of course not i was never going to abort my baby i only said that out of anger which i shouldn't have said
Dinorah : Am not crying y'all
Quiana : So am going to be an auntie ?
Fatima : Yes you all are
Kiki : Don't worry i can manage without you for a few days
Fatima : Of that i have no doubt
Kiki : How about we have a girls night at your place
Fatima : If its okay i just wanna be alone for a few days an bond with my baby i promise we will talk on the phone everyday and if i need anything ill call you guys .....i just need to focus on us an make up for being a brat " laughing"
Quiana : Its okay T we understand
•••• As promise Fatima went home an made her self a nice home cook meal that her baby was craving for .....she then soak in a nice hot bath to relax her mind after 45 minutes she took a shower an got ready for bed when she got an incoming call from Benny she declined his call an drifted off to sleep
ONE WEEK LATER
Fatima spend the whole week catering to her self an her baby ,she prayed an did some meditation , she did so yoga not too much to hurt the baby , she did a little shopping , she had a spa day an lastly she treated her self to a make over day ......she kept her promise an talk to the girls on facetime everyday .....today she was returning to work an its like her stomach grow overnight She was trying to wear her pink body fitted dress but her baby was against it
Fatima : So you not gonna let mommy wear this dress either huh " laughing " She already change three dresses .....okay how about this one ?.....she ask holding up a yellow dress as if the baby could see , she then try it on but it couldn't zip up to the back ......Damn lily mommy need to get to work ( lily is a nickname she give to her baby since she talk to her stomach everyday because she's convinced its a girl ) Okay lily how about this black one ? She put the dress on an surprisingly it fits perfectly an comfortable hiding her little bump......So you wanted mommy to hide you huh " smiles " heels or sandals...she thought for a second then choose the heels she had her hair in a silk press an her make up was a natural face beat she spray on her Chanel perfume an look at her self in the full body length mirror.......your mammie is a ten " sticking her tongue out " ....she made sure she got everything before heading towards her kitchen to make a smoothie before she left the house
She stop for some donuts before heading into work when she got there she lets out a deep breathe as she watch him stand at her entrance door ....she's been avoiding his calls an text just to keep her stress to a minimum an talking to him will only stress her out ....she grab her donuts suitcase an handbag an headed out the car not before putting on her coat over her dress cause she really wasn't in the mood to explain anything to this nigga she really didn't understand why he was so Obsessed with her it was just one night an nothing much happened either , she walked towards her main entrance hoping one of the girls would appear out of thin air now that she needed them .....
Fatima : Mommy really need a miracle right now lily.....as if here baby understand her mommy cries kiki came from around the corner
Kiki : Hey tima i miss you
Fatima : Thanks lily mommy love you .....hey kiki i miss you too
Kiki : Oh my god your glowing this b.......she was cut off by fatima clearing her throat
Fatima : What are you doing here ?
Benny : We need to talk you haven't been answering any of my calls or text
Fatima : That's because we have nothing to talk about benny
Benny : Really fatima after everything
Kiki : Umm ill take these to your office while you handle that
Fatima : Thanks girl
Benny : Can we talk in your office
Fatima : Today is my first day back at work an am not trying to bring this into my day , which am sure i already did talking too you
Benny : Why were you out old week ?
Fatima : Last time i checked i don't own you an explanation
Benny : Did i do something wrong ? He ask getting close to her
Fatima : No you didn't benny ....she sighs trying not to show her irritation
Benny : Then why are you avoiding me ? He ask pulling her close to him by her waist
** Fatima don't know if it was the hormones getting the best of her or if his touch was doing something to her but she got lost in his embrace an before she could comprehend what is happening the two was in a passionate .....benny hands was roaming her body about to rub around her stomach area when she stop him because the kiss made her feel nauseous an she was about to throw up in his mouth
Fatima : We cant do this that kiss was a mistake
Benny : I didn't see you stopping me
Zachary : An neither did i !!!!!
*** An just like that fatima throw up everything she ate the night before an the smoothie she drink this morning all over Benny's clothes.
