This music's the only thing keepin' the peace when I'm fallin' to pieces.
𝗜𝗡 𝗪𝗛𝗜𝗖𝗛 The revolutionary band 'Laughing For The Crazy Woman' have to cover up the death of their lead singer
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𝗜𝗡 𝗪𝗛𝗜𝗖𝗛 Colby Huxhold recites the events lea...
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003. I Can Fix Him (No I Really Can).
Trigger Warnings:Mentions of religious trauma, family issues, mentions of blood, homophobia. Please don't read if you don't feel comfortable, your mental health comes first before any book.
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Entry 3,
I first came out as gay before my mother died, and my family...they're very religious. Believing that a man should be with a woman, and vice versa. So, when I came out, it was a surprise.
Grief turned into sadness.
Sadness turned into anger.
And anger turned into even more anger.
The night I came out was the worst night of my life because I was beaten so badly that the blood started to feel religious.
I still remember the words he said.
I still remember how my mother stood there and watched it happen.
It's okay, I forgive you.
You're dead, anyway.
I'll see you in hell, anyway.
Let's see how you like it to see beaten to a pulp, mother.
I'm not religious, and probably never will be. But Jesus once said to his apostles, "Forgive, and you will be forgiven."
Maybe he's right.
Maybe I should just continue to let people hurt me.
Maybe me trying to survive is just a waste.
After all, who gives a shit about Colby Huxhold anyway?
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Entry Five,
Something is wrong with me.
Well, let me rephrase that a little.
Someone is wrong with me.
It's a strange, strong feeling of hating him and wanting to kiss his stupid face at the same time.
