Coastline From The Sky- (COMPLETED)

Kabanata 35

“S-Seni seviyorum... a-anne.” (I-I love you... M-Mom.) My voice croaked as I called and hugged her.

Anne... how I wish I’ve known her earlier. How I wished I’ve grown-up with her. How I wished I found earlier that I wasn't Caroline’s daughter. How I wished I could turn back time, and make sure that she'll never suffered from losing me.

If I have given a chance to go back to the time where I chose to be to tell anything to anyone, I would gladly chose to go back to the time where my mother didn't met my father yet. I will warn her. I would tell her to never choose my father, so that she won't suffer. I would want her to choose another man, even if it means I wouldn't be born. I would happily choose that—her happiness over me. Because seeing how broken she is now, breaks me twice.

Matapos mag-usap ay umuwi na kami ni Arshed sa condo. Hinatid kami ng sasakyan ni Mommy.

Kahit na nasa sasakyan na kami, iyong nararamdaman ko ay hindi ko pa rin maipaliwanag. Ang dami ko pa ring tanong na gustong masagot, at tanging ang ama ko lang ang makakapagbigay ng kasagutan noon.

Arshed prepared the tub for me when we got home. Pinaupo niya muna ako sa kama habang dumiretso ito sa bathroom.

Pagod na pagod ako. Pagod ako mentally, emotionally, and psychologically.

I covered my hands on my face when Arshed disappeared in my vision. Nagpakawala rin ako ng malalim na buntonghininga kasabay nang sunod-sunod na pagragasa ng mga tanong sa isipan ko.

Pero bago pa man ako tuluyang malunod sa pag-iisip, I stood and started to remove my clothes. After I stripped off my dress, dumiretso agad ako sa bathroom, where Arshed was waiting for me already.

He gestured for me to join him in the tub, naked, na agad kong sinunod.

Ang maligamgam na tubig at ang mabangong amoy ng paligid ay nagpagaan sa mabigat na nararamdaman ko.

I settled in front of Arshed's, leaning against his chest. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko habang pinapakinggan ang kalmadong pagkabog ng dibdib ni Arshed.

Arshed caress my shoulder while I'm still leaning on him. Tuluyang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko nang maramdaman ang marahang haplos ni Arshed.

“Do you feel better now?” he hummed in my ear while still caressing gently my shoulders. Mahina akong tumango at nanatiling nakapikit ang mga mata.

Arshed kissed the top of my head.

“I do... thank you so much, Arshed. Sa lahat-lahat ng mga ginawa at sakripisyo mo para sa akin,” I whispered gently. “You sacrificed too much for me—”

“Shh...” he hushed me immediately. “I am so much willing to do everything for you, Carae, always remember that.”

Umahon ako mula sa pagkakahilig sa kanya at tuluyan na siyang hinarap.

My bare chest showed above the water. Arshed's eyes landed on my bare skin and a growl rolled on his throat.

Nag-angat ng mapupungay na mga mata si Arshed sa akin. His heavy lidded eyes are screaming how he adores me, how he fucking fell for me, how sure he is to sacrifice himself for me.

“I can die for you, Carae. I would gladly take a bullet that is aiming for you. I can burn the world with me just to make sure you're safe and sound,” he said gently. His heavy lidded eyes dropped on my parting lips.

I tried to catch a breath to calm myself.

“I can sacrifice everyone, but not you, Carae.” Arshed said it like it was a vow—that nothing can make him break those vows because it is forbidden. He said it like it was a chord to his life, that if it break, he’ll die too. He’ll die happily with it.