"Nag iisang tiyak sa iisang libong duda."
The song lyrics that are usually used when some people want to tell their partners how much they love them sound so cringy to me, but it took me months to realize that I can somehow relate to them. I hate those lyrics, but here I am, writing something about it for someone.
The urge to write for him is so strong that I can't stop it. Every time it comes around, I can feel the warmth of his hugs and the certainty and assurance. It's so comforting that I always say, "wait, 5 minutes pa." every time I'm sitting with him during lunchtime, even when the bell has already rung.
Eventually, the idea didn't remain like that. I eventually got tired and failed to find reasons to still hold on to the nag iisang tiyak because I don't even know if he's still certain. I barely held on.
But he didn't let me go. He made me realize that I'm still his panigurado even though the war is still not over. That also made me realize that loving him isn't perfect. I can feel butterflies in my stomach, but I'm willing to also feel earthquakes in it.
Magulo ang utak ko, gaya ng pyesang ito ay hindi rin ako sigurado kung tama pa rin ba. Ngunit nandyan ka upang baguhin ang pahina, masulat ang akin at ang sayo, ang pyesa mo at ang pyesa ko, ang nararamdaman mo at ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi man tayo ayos ay naiintindihan ko, iniintindi mo ako at intindihin din kita. Mahalaga ka pa rin kahit hindi tayo maayos, nag iisang tiyak ka pa rin sa lahat ng oras at puntos.
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