iii. go on, forever

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i watch roses grow over your body.
your favourite were daisies and they never showed up in your valley,
and i cry when you go,
i stay up in the night,
sometimes i think, would it be okay if i turned back time?

i could go on and on,
how i miss you in my arms,
and we almost got it all.
i could've had the world,
if you had your hand in mine,
and i wish i could go,
when you were still alive,
i would've had it all,
if you had your lips in mine.

but i wet my hands with tears,
i wash off my whole face,
i wouldn't tell you all this
if i wasn't so upset.
i could run all along,
forever, that's my time,
i only wish i had you,
i'm alone when i say that i'm fine.

so i tell you how it could've ended,
you would stay beside me,
if i kissed you that day,
if i called you that night in may,
if i ever heard your songs,
and if i heard the ticking bomb,
and if i told you it was me all along.

but i wet my hands with my tears,
i wash off my whole face.
you would cry and leave me,
and i would sob in the corner like a ghost,
i would run all along,
through forever.

and i would tell you stories about how it went down.
how we met, your days in my castle,
how i hear your soul in the rustle.

alas, forever goes on.
daisies never bloom,
roses in my palm.
and you greet me everyday amidst all invisible witnesses,
my clandestine love grows in your secluded house.

go on, forever.
if you would let me kiss you again.

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