The Lifeless Soul

Maniac

I've become a sadist.

I enjoy playing with peoples' feelings.

I enjoy gaslighting and manipulating people.

Why?

Because i enjoy it?

Probably not.

So why do i do it?

To be honest

I have no idea.

I have no idea why i do it.

I have no idea why i enjoy it.

I have no idea why I'm like this.

Maybe i was born to be like this.

Maybe this is my destiny.

No.

I chose this.

I chose to become like this.

And because i myself chose it

I can change it.

If it's not my destiny, then i can change it.

I can change it.

Do i want to.

NO.

I don't want things to change.

Im enjoying this.

But i have to change.

I can't stay like this.

This is not human.

What better am i than a monkey, if i keep doing this?

What does it mean to be Human? 

I wouldn't understand.

I'm a monster.

A disgrace to this race.

Ahahaha, I couldn't care enough.

That's what i say every time i think about this.

I care.

I care about this.

I want to be normal again.

But..

HOW??

I don't know what i should do anymore.

How do i stop.

Maybe i should try to be kind.

Maybe i should stop gaslighting and manipulating people for fun.

If only i would've never started doing this.

No. I didn't start this.

It started on It's own.

I didn't do this..

Right..?

I did.

I started it.

And i'm going to be the one to end it.

-End