Blame On Me | TXT

'04 (edited.)

"Kang Taehyun."

There's no point of hiding it anymore. The truth was out.

"I-I.. hyung, it's not w-what you think it is.."
Taehyun tried to explain everything.

Give up Taehyun, there's no point in explaining when the truth is right in front of them.

Taehyun barged out of the house, running.

They didn't know where he was going.
Hell, even he doesn't know where he was going.

Beep! Beep!

Car horns. Traffic sounds. Tires screeching.

Crack!

He fell.

.....

"He had broken his left arm in the accident."
The doctor announced, leaving Yeonjun in horror.

Huening and Beomgyu groaned in frustration.

"We also found deep cuts on his arms. It's possible he had self-harmed himself"

Well not long after, Taehyun woke up.

"Oh, Taehyunie.."
Yeonjun's tears finally fell down.
He hugged him tight, refusing to let go.

"I'll leave you guys for privacy"
The doctor said before leaving, closing the door.

Beomgyu's eyes rolled at him.

"Your childish, Taehyun. Doing these 'self-harm' thing, running out of the house, crying because of jokes, that's fucking childish."

Beomgyu didn't end his word there.

"Your such a loser, stupid loser. I don't understand why Yeonjun hyung wanted to be friends with you. I don't even know why Huening wanted to befriend you in the first place. You're such a burden to us."

Taehyun's tears were overflowing but he just showed a cold face.

"Yeah, cry all you want crybaby tyunnie"
Beomgyu mocked his usual crying face before barging out.

Huening stepped in.

"I agree with Beomgyu hyung. You are really childish, y'know? You don't even want to have fun with us. Whatever, I'm out of here"

Taehyun couldn't hold his cold face anymore. He agreed, he really is a sentimental person.

"OH, FUCK YOU GUYS"
Yeonjun yelled before chasing the two of them.

Soobin didn't bother going there because he knows, it's just going to end up with at least 2 people arguing.

Taehyun sit up with his knees up to his neck.

His cries became audible more and more.

2 hours later, Taehyun was still crying and Yeonjun came back.

"Taehyun-ah.."
Yeonjun sighed.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE HYUNG. I'M A BURDEN. EVERYONE HATES ME. I DON'T DESERVE TO LIVE. YOU'RE JUST PRETENDING TO BE NICE BECAUSE YOU PITY ME."

The room floor was scattered with things he threw at Yeonjun.

Taehyun had enough.

The truth had been revealed to them and the truth had been revealed to him.

Fair play.

Yeonjun left due to Taehyun's wish.

["If you need to be mean,
be mean to me.
I can take it and put it inside of me.
If your hands need to break more than trinkets in your room,
You can lean on my arm when you break my heart" - I Don't Smoke by Mitski]

A few months had passed.
Taehyun's condition was getting worser.
He had to be transferred to a mental hospital.

He refused to eat.
He refused to follow with the therapy sessions.
He threw his medicine away.

His depression was too late to be cured.
He starts to feel comfortable in the sadness that he refused to get better.

Yeonjun asked the doctor if Taehyun could be discharged.

The doctor agreed but adviced him to give Taehyun his medicine everyday.

.....

"We're home, Tyun-ah.."
In a bit of a sorrowful tone, Yeonjun said

"I'm guessing Beomgyu hyung and Huening moved out?"
Taehyun asked while starring at the empty room.

"Don't mention his name in this house."
Soobin's voice in a serious tone.

Taehyun went to his room and unpacked his things.

Then, there comes the teddy.
The one Kai gave to him on his 17th birthday.

It's very special to him, it was his first ever teddy bear.

Taehyun grew up without knowing who his dad was and his mom basically neglected him.

Well left him all by himself to be exact.

Ever since he got discharged from the hospital, he'd never let go of the teddy Kai gave to him.

He'd rot in his bed, sleeping while holding the teddy on his arms.

He'll only get out of bed if he needed to use the bathroom.

Day after day, he started looking pale..
He keeps rejecting food.
He barely drank water.
He didn't take his medicine.

Soobin and Yeonjun kept trying to look for Huening and Beomgyu.
Forgetting about Taehyun who's locked in his room.

Knock! Knock! Knock!

"Taehyun-ah? Come on out please."
Yeonjun knocked on the door, trying to get Taehyun's attention.

5 minutes later, Taehyun's face hasn't showed up.

"Yah, Taehyun! Open the fuckin' door. This is an order."
Soobin banged at the door, full with anger ness because of him.

"Hyung, don't spoil Taehyun like he's a child. He's a freaking whole ass 21 year old man."
Soobin said to his hyung.

Click!

"Hyun-ah! You okay?"
Yeonjun rushed to Taehyun's bed.

"What, hyung? Does it look like I'm okay?"

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Author:
Sequel is going to be in this book too, don't worry.
My head hurts bro