Edge of madness||ZY

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I haven't left my place since yesterday.  In my same pathetic position, I hug my thin body on the wooden floor

I woke up today with a severe headache.

And my eyes are burning because of crying so much.

Because I had not moved for a very long time, my body was convulsing and it was with great difficulty that I stood on my feet.

The door noise really bothered me!

Who might come to me at this time?

If it weren't for those roads, I would be asleep until now!  For an unknown period of time

I just fell into a coma!

I sighed and rubbed my eyes as I dragged myself with difficulty to the door, which became a distance between me and it

Huge distance!

My whole body hurts and I struggled with my walking!

I pulled the door handle, and because it was worn out and old, I felt it move from its place

“Who is at the door..?”

The old man was the owner of the café, Hong Jin

He smiled brightly at me while leaning on his cane

"I've been worried about you, my little one! For a while, I've been knocking on your door.."

“Because I was asleep...”

I stuttered and bowed to him apologetically.

" It's not your fault .. "

I moved out of the way so he could slowly enter and walk behind him after carefully pushing the door open.

Sincerely!  I was not in the mood to receive guests even if he was this good man

He did not sit on the sofa as a guest is supposed to do!  He just walked around the house in complete comfort and was humming along after everything he saw!

As I sat on the sofa, not caring, I hid my face behind my palms and exhaled forcefully, exhaustion exhausting my body. I felt myself shrinking from the worries that were weighing on my shoulders.

“The door needs repair and these lamps, but the rest of the house is in good condition.”

I heard him talking to himself and I rolled my eyes!  If my father abandoned me, why would you worry about me since you are a stranger to me?

And I am the closest person to him

He can't stand my presence anymore!!

After yesterday's long discussion with myself!

I was convinced of the bitter truth

My mother abandoned me, my father left me and left!  And then my father... he no longer liked my presence around him!

Whatever the reasons!  I will not be a heavy burden on him... If my distance from him comforts him, then that is okay.