Edge of madness||ZY

6

Your eyes are beautiful, but they are the height of seduction!!

But I don't like it, to be honest with you yibo!  After you turned fourteen, your eyes became an exact copy of your mother's!

So just, your eyes are my torment

It's not like I find her ugly!  In fact, it actually weakens me...but I see in it bad memories and a past that I will never forget.

I kissed his lips several times...and kissed his nose and cheeks. With these kisses, I apologize for what I did during the day.

I quietly pulled my hand from under his head, got up, looked at him one last time, and withdrew into the kitchen.  He is definitely hungry... He hasn't eaten anything since morning!

Kissing him when he was awake was wrong!!  I couldn't contain myself, just the thought of his lips being touched by someone else made me so angry

Even though I beat that corrupt person, I still burn with anger when I remember him crying in front of me and shaking

In these last years, I have mastered acting anger with you!  You find me angry and I shout at you!!  In fact, I cannot be angry with you even for the worst thing you might do!!

You see me with hot blood and terrifying eyes that scare you!!

This was nothing but the anger residing inside me.

Anger at myself and nothing else.

Every slap you took from me... you returned to me, and slapped my heart again!  And every word that sounds bad to your ears disturbs and exhausts me more than you personally.

You are my soul and my life.  Can you imagine how I experienced pain with you!?  Maybe my pain was double yours

Because I realize very well...that one day you will hate me and you will not look at my face. You will go and continue your path away from me

I have a completely unnatural desire to protect you and take care of you, my little child.  Oh my precious ruby

Cruelty?  Being cruel to you?  And my heart is sensitive to your smallest details..!!

prattle !!  It's all nonsense
Always and forever.. I wish time could go back!  If I were your dad who showed his love for you and did not hide it under fake, rough behavior

If you had not grown up and remained my little child, whose presence was the reason for me to live with full mental capacity.  !

If you don't grow up and your eyes look like your mother's!

If only I could erase the past from existence before you light up my house

At some point in my life!  I wished for death, I wished I had never been born in the first place!

And you appeared to me like a miracle!!  You have become my hope.. and the reason for which I live!

I was ready to sacrifice everything for you!  And I actually did

I dedicated my time and myself to you, and even my family and my life were abandoned!  Because you were my life