I walked home feeling kind of weird. My legs felt a little wobly and I was a little unsure of what I was doing. Suddenly Tom appeared in my head and all the anxious feelings related to the situation we were facing.
I took a deep breath and somehow relaxed. Everything was going to be all right! This was just another situation that I was going to overcome and we were going to be fine.
I got home and focused on what I had to do of the university. I had to study for a really important final so I had to focus all of my energy on that and nothing else.The days passed and each day that passed without getting my period I was more anxious. I told Tom I wasn't getting it and he told me to not worry, that maybe it was coming late.
Sleeping at night got really hard and after a week of not getting it my anxiety levels were really high and I didn't know what to do.On the weekend I stayed over at Tom's house and we were together every second. Somehow this situation brought us closer together. We went on walks, studied together, watched a couple movies.
We didn't have sex because I didn't feel like it, this whole baby thing made me worry too much and I needed to know if I was pregnant before making love again.When the week started I was very stuck in my head, worried consumed me at times and I tried to evade it all but it just weighed on me so much. How could I get rid of those feelings with the constant questions in my mind.
Days passed and I still hadn't gotten my period. This was starting to get serious and I couldn't bare it any longer.
That wednesday I went to the painting class and my mind wouldn't stop spinning in circles causing me more and more worry. My heart was beating non stop and everything that I drew felt messy and worthless.
The worst part about it all was that nobody seemed to notice. I felt so much inside of me and it looked like all the others could see was this mask that I was so used to wearing.The class ended and I started walking away, I didn't wait for Evelyn because I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I just left and when I was waiting to cross the street at a red light I felt her voice from behind me.
- Hey... - she said. I didn't turn around, I thought of acting dumb and ignoring her. I had no energy to socialize or act fine with people and I needed to be alone.
- That's rude you know? Not even saying bye... - she said until she reached me.
- Well... Fuck you -. The words slipped out of my mouth and then I met her eyes. I instantly felt ashamed and amazed at myself. How could I say that to someone who I barely knew?First her face seemed surprised and then she started to laugh. What was wrong with her? This was so...weird. Each time that we spoke it was everything but normal.
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