Finding the dead pieces of me,in the lone nights,
Sinking into dark depression,dealing with the shock of a loss..
May be repairable of everyone else,but somehow,not me..
The wounds were deep,then suddenly it all came crashing down..
Yes..
You were not there,whenever and wherever actually I needed you .
You just were there,whenever you needed yourself,your heroic self..
My fears became nothing in your eyes..
Yet so easily you decided it was time to use me well..
You came to me with a marriage proposal,when all I needed was a friend to talk to..
You did not listen a word,before deciding to break us apart so casually..
Not even thinking,it might be the last moment of my life..
Or I might actually need a little bit silence..
You remembered all the great deeds you did..
And I forgot even your name..
It's a great deed indeed.
I wish..
I would forget even you..
Worst betrayal is not the stabbing in back darling.
It's stabbing in the back when you know someone is vulnerable..
May be your eyes did not even see me.
All they ever see was a perfect image you build on your own..
May be it was wrong for me to expect understanding..
With so much gone..
But it seems,our perfect little kid has never grown up,to own up that even he was a mess,far more than ever..
That even his touch was messy..
And it could drive someone crazy..
So to hide your failure,you again used me,my love..
Just like ten years ago..
You ran to your mother and talked about me,being a good boy..
You very well knew,she would curse me,for every pain of yours..
So you became the goodboy...
That I am the cause of your loss..
What a perfect marriage proposal..
And here I need reason to keep you safe..
